Starting Over

Chapter 38: Husband and Wife

Today is Clarissa and Jake's wedding.

I don't know what was wrong with me last night. I kept thinking about Skylar and that made me sad. I've come to learn that everything I do reminds me of Skylar. I took my emotions out on Chase last night.

I didn't speak to him for the rest of the night. I was scared I was going to the say the wrong thing. Something I would regret.

You know that saying April showers being May flowers?

I live by that saying in the month of April.

I hate the month of April. April gives me bad memories. April was the accident. But May, May is a new month. A new month that isn't April. That makes me smile every time I think of it.

Chase doesn't hold grudges. He's not mad at me for having a bad night.

He woke me up with a smile on his face. This house is crazy. Everyone is running around trying to get everything ready before two.

The wedding is outside overlooking a river. It's on the bank of the Neuse River.

It's going to be so hot today at two. I hate outdoor weddings when it's hot.

When me and Skylar would go to wedding as children we would bet on how long the couple would last. I still do that. In my head. We both came from homes where our parents weren't happy. Hers were always arguing and getting a divorce. Mine were, well rich famous parents. Who needed a divorce. They think their relationship has to be perfect on the outside, but not the inside. When in reality that's not true at all.

I'm not going to do that today though because this is Chase's sister.

Every time I have walked around this house today I have felt like I'm in the way. So I'm upstairs studying my anatomy book.

I've figured out my relationship with my family.

Since I've been here in Havelock I've posted pictures. For the first time in awhile I'm back on social media. The first picture I posted was announcing my new relationship. The second was on me in my outfit from last night before we left because I felt pretty. Both photos my brothers liked and my mom.

I guess that's the new family dynamic. Let's like each other's post, but never talk to each other. I still keep up with their life. How could I not? I want to know what they're doing if they miss me like I miss them. But I know this is for best and with time I'll get use to it.

I'm pulled out of my thoughts when my door swings open quickly and shuts just as quickly.

Melanie walks in and sits down on the bed next to me.

I give her a questioning look.

"I'm hiding."

"From?"

"Everyone. It's a madhouse down there. Everyone is loading flowers into cars. Which I should be with the other bridesmaids and Clarissa at the venue hanging out, but mother insisted that I help get everything set up. You know they should have done all of this last night. They still have to decorate the tables for the reception. This is the most unorganized family ever. Chase should be here helping but nope he's a groomsman he gets to go hang with the guys." She rants.

"What time is it?"

"One."

"What?"

"Yeah the wedding is in an hour and I should be hanging with the wedding party but I'm here."

"I need to get ready."

I must have lost track of time. I was to busy studying bones. I immediately get up and start getting ready.