Betrayal, Such A Funny Thing// A Tommyinnit story

Chapter 7: Tired

TW
SH
STOCKHOLM SYNDROME
HALLUCINATIONS
SUICIDAL IDEATION
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NOBODYS POV:

Tommy sat alone once more. Dream had been out getting stuff for dinner and trusted Tommy alone, just for a little while.

Tommy stared out to the ocean thinking of what could've been if he had just stayed where he was in that stupid shack he lived in years ago.

He had so much fun with Eryn back then.

He could vividly remember everything that happend back in those days.

He hated remembering.

Absolutely hated it.

Especially remembering how he joined Wilbur like the naive little kid Tommy was.

He ran away from his family because of how selfish they were and crawled back to one of his brothers not even two years later.

He left everything he already had to join the man who didn't even give a shit about him in the end. The man who was supposed to be his brother. Tommy just regretted everything.

Especially inviting Wilbur into his home for the first time in almost two years.

He hated Wilbur.

Then once he found Tubbo and took him in they became best friends.

Tommy laughed to himself.

"Why was I so naive. None of them ever cared. I should've just went with Eryn."

Tommy pulled his knees to his chest and teared up.

"I'm getting so tired. Why can't I just die already." Tommy cried.

"This was supposed to be over a long time ago. Why is no one ever on my side. What did I do to deserve all of this. I'm just a kid." Tommy sobbed and sobbed.

Once done he got up and walked over to his tent and grabbed a shard of glass and stabbed his leg, screaming in pain.

But he was sure it wasn't because of the glass in his leg. He was in emotional pain.

He wanted everything to stop.

He wanted things to go back to how they where almost a year ago.

Back when he just shunned people out.

Dream was in the prison and tubbo didn't bat him an eye.

Tommy knew tubbo would've betrayed him once again, sooner or later.

He just didn't think it would be so soon.

Tommy pulled the shard of glass out in fear.

"What am I doing? Dream is going to be so sad. He's my friend. I don't want him to be sad." Tommy said rummaging through his stuff to find bandages.

Soon after he bandaged his leg.

"I'll just say I fell or somthing. He doesn't need to know." Tommy thought to himself.

But he's your friend.

"What who said that?!" Tommy said looking around.

You shouldn't lie to your friends.

Tommy turned to the direction of the sound.

He saw a tiny version of himself.

He had to be Tommy but when he was about 13.

Wilbur told me never to lie.

"Well Wilbur is a liar himself, a scumbag." Tommy yelled, frightening the boy infront of him.

Tommy stopped yelling "He's nothing more then that. He hurt you. Look at your arm, your face. You can't tell me he didn't do that to you. I am you"

Tommy remembered that day. Wilbur broke his arm.

They were training for battle and Tommy messed up.

Wilbur threw him off the ledge of a building tall enough to break his arm as punishment.

Tommy got it bandaged up by niki as she kept telling him Wilbur was really stressed and he didn't mean to.

Later that night Wilbur apologized and Tommy foolishly forgave him.

Even with seeing the grin on his face he would always forgive him.

He was his brother after all.

The younger version of Tommy looked at him and sighed.

He's not our brother is he?

Tommy grew wide eyed.

He wanted to cry, but he didn't.

Instead, Tommy looked down and crunched his fists.

"No. No he isn't. He hasn't been for a long time."

The younger version started to cry.

What happend to us?

Tommy looked at himself straight in the eyes.

He walked over to the younger version and looked down to him.

"Everything and everyone happend Tommy."

The younger stopped crying.

Then why did we stick with them.

Tommy looked at his younger self and fell to his knees, starting to sob.

"Because you loved all of them, every single one." Tommy cried.

"You loved Niki and you loved Jack, fundy, tubbo, Wilbur. They were your family, and you do anything for family."

Then why didn't they do the same for us?

Tommy sobbed harder.

"Because you are impossible to love and you don't deserve love. They all deserved more than you. They needed more than you."

The younger version started to cry.

But I'm friendly and I'm thoughtful and I'm quite awfully pretty. So why? Why did they leave me.

"Because they needed more than me." Tommy mumbled.

The younger version stopped and he grew.

He looked like he was 16 now.

But we deserved love too. We needed more didn't we.

Why didn't we get it.

"I- I just don't know." Tommy said wiping the tears from his face.

It's because they're all selfish Tommy.

They don't care about us.

"I know that."

Then why did we still crawl back to them?

"Because we weren't meant to be on our own. I can't be on my own." Tommy said looking at his younger self.

The younger version looked at him.

I see...

He said as he faded away and Tommy was left alone once more.

I can't live like this anymore I need to leave.

Now

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Hehehhehehe the tears over beers reference 🤭