(Yours Series # 5) Always Yours (COMPLETED)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

I hate fighting.

I hate being in a fight.

I had been told once that my pride was basically non-existent... ang dali ko raw kasi mag-sorry. I didn't understand what was wrong with that. If I were in the wrong, why would it be hard to apologize? And sometimes, even if I felt like I was not in the wrong, I would still apologize kapag mas important sa akin iyong tao.

I'd rather lose the fight than lose the person.

"I beg of you, pumunta na tayo sa barbershop," I said nung makita ko si Iñigo. Ang haba na nung buhok niya. Kung hindi ko lang siya kilala dati pa, I'd think that this was a different person altogether.

"Madami akong ginagawa," he replied.

I sighed.

Iñigo's smart—probably the smartest person I know—and it just breaks my heart to see him like this. Ang ganda ng trabaho niya noon. I still remember nung makuha niya iyong pinaka-una niyang sweldo—nilibre niya ako. I wanted to tell him na 'wag na kasi hindi naman kailangan, but he looked so proud of himself na pinabayaan ko na siya.

Since then, I'd seen how hard he worked to be where he was...

Tapos biglang ganito ngayon.

Sometimes, it's hard to wake up in the morning when I remember how hard life sucked.

While he was busy working, I picked up the broom at nagsimulang magwalis. I was thankful na maraming kalat sa apartment nila Iñigo. I needed this right now. I kept on reverting back to the night Chester and I had a fight. Iyon yata ang unang seryoso na away namin. Away ba 'yon? It had been three days since we last had a proper conversation. Nagkikita pa rin naman kami sa apartment, but it wasn't like before.

"Gracey."

"What?" I replied while I was still sweeping the floor.

"Ano'ng problema?"

"What?" I replied again, this time, I was already facing him.

"May imaginary kalat ka na naman na winawalis," he pointed out. I sighed because I really couldn't hide anything from him. We basically grew up together. He knew all my telltale signs. And it's not like I was trying to hide it from him.

I sat on one of the boxes. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin tapos si Iñigo sa pagaayos nung mga box. I offered to help him before, but he told me that he wanted to do that alone.

"Kapag nagaaway kayo ni Cha, paano ka nagsosorry?"

"Bakit ako agad nagsosorry?" he asked. "Parang kasalanan ko agad?"

I eyed him. He rolled his eyes. I laughed a little. He didn't even try to deny it.

"Nagaway kayo ni Chester?" he asked.

I shrugged. I didn't want to tell Iñigo kung ano iyong pinagtalunan namin ni Chester. I knew that he'd feel bad kapag nalaman niya. When he first learned about what happened to me, I felt afraid for him... Because he had just lost his parents... He almost lost me... Hindi ko alam kung ano pa ang mangyayari sa kanya kapag sinisi siya ng pamilya ko. They were indifferent with Iñigo for a long time. It costed me several birthday wishes for them to finally come around the idea that it was not Iñigo's fault. But still, I knew that the after effect was a sore spot for them. So, I tried to downplay everything. I never really talked about my dream of having a kid. I knew it was my dream, but I never really discussed it with anyone.

But now, Chester's here.

It's not just a dream anymore.

It could be my reality.