adopted by elizabeth olsen

part 9

We finally arrived at the mall, i say finally but it was only about 10 minutes. i was so excited i mean i love shopping! however malls kinda freaked me out. there was so many people and i know none of them! well except Lizzie of course. the reason i don't like malls is because i was nearly taken from one when i was a kid and if the security guard didn't have a good memory of who i came in the mall with, i wouldn't be here today. but i push all of that aside, this is my day with Lizzie and nothing can go wrong!

Before i knew it we were already at the first shop. the last thing i remember was sitting in the car singing my heart out, i must've zoned out. "so, go pick out anything you want missie, my treat." Lizzie says. "Anything really?" i say eyeing up this sweatshirt in the store. "Anything!" she reassures me. I had already got so much from just the first shop that we had to go back to the car to put the bags in it. No, i didn't pick this all out of myself, Lizzie kept putting things in the cart saying it would suit me and i was getting it and when i tried to say no she wasn't having any of it. so basically i was forced into shopping haha!
here's some outfits i got from just the first shop! i'll do a haul of everything when i get back home!

yes there is a mixture of different styles but Lizzie said i'd suit all of them and if i didn't like it i didn't have to wear it. we went around a few more stores and i got loads of things, again Lizzie made me. Then she tries to get me to go into the apple shop. no. no way am i letting her spend that much money on me! "please! your phone is so old and you definitely need some airpod pros and an apple watch please they're necessities in life!!" "no lizzie, you're not spending that much money on me you have spent way more than enough already! i'm not going in" "fine i'll go in my myself" "no" i tried to say but she was already gone. i wait outside for a while until i spot my old foster father. what was he doing here? why? i start hyperventilating thinking of all the things he did to me back then. i was only little so nobody really knows about it but i don't ever stop thinking about it, i've forgot a few things, few of the worst i'm gathering as people say your brain tends to block out all of the bad memories you don't want to relive but suddenly they all came flushing back when he looked into my eyes.

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i was back it that god awful basement. hands tied, feet chained and blood coming from everywhere and then he starts to r@pe me. i really really really didn't want to remember this and i'm glad i'd forgotten it for a little while but that's all over now. i run in the store to find Lizzie. "see i knew you'd want a new phone!" she exclaims happily in the 'i told you so' voice. that was until she turned around and realised i was crying my eyes out. "Hol what's wrong?" "he's here lizzie we need to go" "who is holly what's going on your scaring me!" "i'll explain just come!" and that she does. she gets the bag of electronics off the man and we run out of there. yes we got a few stares but i'm not too fussed as long as i'm not in the same building as that man! "do you want to tell me why we just ran at about 60 mph out of that mall" she asks while panting. i don't know if i do want to tell her. will she be mad at me? i shouldn't have had sex that young. does that make me disgusting? "well..."

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short chapter because i feel bad. listen i'm a gal with mental health problems and mocks atm, life isn't great but i appreciate your patience and support so i wanted to try and get something out for you!! hopefully this chapter will motivate me to keep writing, hopefully but i do have a few shows coming up so i need to rehearse and revise and have a social life and go to school and write this! it's a stressful life but oh well. i hope yous are all well and my inbox is always open! love yous❤️❤️