The vampire girl (Ignore The Mistakes)

im here: chapter 19

TW anxiety, panic attacks overthinking

As amity entered luz's room she sees her laying on the ground in holding her knees to her chest choking back tears shaking as she whimpers like a wounded animal her heart sank as she ran to luz and held her in her arms
Luz POV

Your worthless your nothing no one likes you they only pretend to care so they can use you no one cares its only out of pity they wanna hurt you don't trust anyone you are on your own. Stop leave me alone its not like that eda mark mom and amity and king love me I trust them they mean everything to me please stop
They are just gonna walk out of your life like everyone else what makes you think they are any different? Because they were nicer about it? No! Its not like that I am loved! People care about me I have friends! Two moms one that took me in, a father figure a girlfriend! A little brother! You are nothing to them its all lies they hate you, who could ever love someone like you? You are broken you have to many flaws you are a burden to your loved ones they will get tired of you, Stop! Leave me alone let me be happy! I don't wanna push people away! I don't wanna be alone! You are just a voice in my head nothing you are saying is true someone does love me! Go away I will not take this anymore! Heh you think its that easy? You are weak vulnerable a burden to much issues you can't even get away from the bullying!  End of POV
"I'm here I'm here your safe" "your safe I'm not going anywhere" as she continues to whisper sweet things in her ear as luz slowly starts to calm down with heavy breathing she hugged amity tightly resting her head on her shoulder crying as she slowly stopped shaking her mind began to ease hearing her girlfriend whisper calming and comforting things as amity wiped her tears away as she gave luz a kiss on the cheek she smiled warmly at her cute tiny girlfriend "I'm here Luz I'm here" luz softly smiles back "thank you. I needed that" "anything for you mi batata" luz chuckles hugging her once again as amity allowed luz to snuggle her she slightly checks the bite mark to see nothing but a small mark
It was doing much better and hardly noticable she picked up luz and placed luz on her bed "whenever you are okay with it would you mind telling me what happened?" "It was an anxiety attack" "I'm sorry love," "its fine I'm doing okay now thanks to you" she smiles at her making the vampire worry less

"As soon as a came here eda was alright on in her car she let me in then I saw you here panicking" luz awkwardly giggles "i..kinda waited for eda to leave because I didn't want her to see me like this"

She sighed "luz its okay to be vulnerable sometimes, its what makes you human try not to bottle it up it can be unhealthy for you" "I know I'm sorry" "its okay you don't need to apologize I'm just worried" "oh sorry for making you worry" "its okay luz I'll I care about is that you are okay" "thanks amity.. This means so much to me" "I'm always gonna protect and be here for you" 'what if..she gets annoyed of me?..' 'I cry to much..' 'What if she leaves me' "Luz?" "Hm?" "I just zoned out" amity gives luz another kiss luz rested as she held onto amity she was tired after a long day she wanted to take a nap she will get tired of you she flinched as amity noticed "what's wrong" "heh..just things that happen after the panic attack." She doesn't need to deal with your problems amity kissed her on more time and put a blanket on luz "I also brought you something" she pulled out a stuffed animal which was a black cat with blue eyes she gave it to luz "thank you Ami" luz held Amity's hand "your welcome" laying next to luz as she wrapped her arms around her as luz fell asleep while being in Amity's arms which made her feel a lot better