The vampire girl (Ignore The Mistakes)

silence : chapter 21

Trigger warning bullying suicidal thoughts and blood will be involved if you can't handle this please click off and thank you

After the conversation amity felt drained and sick she still couldn't forgive herself,

Luz hugged amity still a bit tense from her touch as amity rests her head on luz's shoulder "again I am so so sorry" "what can I do to make myself better" "I think its best to work on yourself you have been taking care of me" "so let me help you in this one you can try to work on yourself" amity realized she can ask for advice "I should have told you sooner luz" "its not your fault like a said we do things we don't mean or we lose control of ourselves sometimes" 'your so kind luz. I really don't deserve you' amity looked up at her "it was like a voice in my head trying to convince me to do bad things and it got to me" "what other things did it tell you" "it..it wanted me to hurt you" "is there someone you can talk to that understands this?" "..my father" she sat up and hugs luz one more time " I'm going to go try and control myself and get some advice and then I'll make it up to you so I don't have to worry about hurting you" amity runs off "I'll be back go somewhere safe!" Luz nodded as she watched her leave soon exiting the woods herself making her way back home

Amity knocks on her parents door waiting for minute as it opened "yes amity?" "Dad could we talk?" He realized by the look on his daughters face it was serious

"And i attacked her without doing it intentionally" she looks at her father who was lost in thought "so your saying you have little control" "yes and I wanna be able to control myself" "amity I think its time to separate yourself from everyone for awhile your siblings had to go through this as well its a hard thing to do but you need to distant yourself to keep others safe" "well okay dad so what else do i have to do?" "I'm gonna be testing you and see how long you can hold back when you see blood when you smell blood" 

Amity was confused for a bit but did what her dad told her to do

----------------during the night---------------

It was a long night after all of that training she laid in bed exhausted hearing her door open she turns to look seeing her door close quickly she sits up as she notices a note on her desk "really?" Turning on her lamp she picks up the letter and reads it as best as she could despite being really tired half way finish she went to bed for the night

Next morning because I'm lazy and tired

Luz made her way to school everyone was happy for the short break and early out the teachers had some work to do so today was an early out while the teachers did paperwork for their final grades for the school year as she sat in her desk and mostly kept an eye on the clock while listening to music it really helped to blow of steam also to escape reality when it all becomes to much for her to handle all she can do was put in her headphones turn up the volume on high then play her favorite song on repeat she felt like she wasn't enjoying it they way it deserved luz loved music she could listen to it all day long not getting tired of it how could anyone especially when music was your therapy it was everything songs that describe exactly how you feel a song that understands you better then anyone then actual people in your life
Someone tapped on her shoulder she takes out one of her headphones looking at who was trying to get her attention "hey me and willow will be gone early we won't be at lunch" "where are you two going?" "Doctors appointment" "oh okay so is gus here?" "Yeah he is just running late" hunter and willow both live in the same house since her dads are taking care of him while his father is away and didn't want to leave hunter alone "have fun" the bell rang as everyone got up and headed to lunch luz got what she needed sitting down looking around the room looking for her friend "gus!" She spots him making his way to her "hey luz so its just us two today?" "Yep it is everyone else is busy" "looks like it" he sat next to her pulling something from his pocket "check this out" he shows a deck a cards "I just bought these some are really rare!" 'That looks so cool!" Luz and gus ate their food while talking about the cards "have this one" he gives luz his most cherished card "I gave one to willow and hunter now you!" "Oh are you sure gus?" "Positive you are my friend" he smiles at her "thanks gus"