Crawling back
People I used to call friends crawling back
To me
Hoping for a second chance
Even after the pain they put me through
Do I allow them to hurt me again?
Do I push them away?
Do I forget it all?
I can't help but feel hopeless
They'll spread rumors I'm sure
Make me seem like I'm not worth much anymore
Once hurt a thousand times
Trusting comes harder for me
I've been damaged and ruined
I'll never be the same
Others will call me selfish and unkind
If I don't allow them in my life again
But if I do
I'm allowing them to be selfish and unkind to me
I've gone through a lot of things
But none of them have taken this much
This much energy and time
Completely and utterly wasted
It's too late to restart
The friendship train has passed
It won't pass by again
I'm alone
It's sad
However I'd rather be without friends
Than with fake friends
I can't remember
The last time I had a real one
Years and years
Of once meaningful times
Turned into useless conversations
With former friends
Life's not as simple as it was
It's definitely worse
Maybe someday a true one will come by
One that I don't have to worry about
Hurting me
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Painful Words
Poetry*One moment he was my life The next he wasn't even part of it* This is a collection of poetry I've written that is ongoing. From friendships to heartbreak, it deals with many different topics.
