WARNING: This poem is very dark and personal and deals with once again, my suicidal thoughts. Read with caution and know that if you need help with anything like this, talk to someone. You are loved even if you don't feel like you are :)
I'm so tired of crying
Of feeling like I'm dying
When all I really want is to be dead
Because it'll be better than what's ahead
I've been holding onto life
Carving my wrists with a knife
All for just wishing I'll be alright
Lately I worry I might not make it through the night
I've lost all my light
My head is pounding
The echo is sounding
I'm always faking a smile
Because it's easier than explaining my silence that's lasted awhile
At this point
I'm waiting for the day I put to my head a weapon
Because I'm just so very done
And once I pull the trigger
There will be a loud sound all around
Then after that
All it will be is silent
It won't be violent
Because for once I'll be getting my wish
Freedom from life, now that's bliss
Nothing could get better than this
Except it could
Because I'm in distress
I'm a complete mess
All because I'm depressed
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Painful Words
Poetry*One moment he was my life The next he wasn't even part of it* This is a collection of poetry I've written that is ongoing. From friendships to heartbreak, it deals with many different topics.
