I wanna ruin our friendship (Jinx x Fem!Y/N)

17.

A/N
My friend is reading this story and I'm scared for her reaction 😻
Sorry  for late upload
Also sorry for it being short-

Y/N's pov

I woke to my phome alarm actually working today and I turned it off. I made it go off quite early as I would have to do Jinx's hair in the morning as she now loves it when I play with it. She hates getting up early but she loves feeling relaxed so it's a love hate relationship

Jinx was asleep on me and seemed distressed in whatever her head was making her dream. I slightly move her shoulders to see if I could wake her up and it did.

She woke quickly and seemed upset... Maybe her dreams are affecting her more...

Did I do something wrong?

"I'm sorry..." Jinx muttered and she looked down, she seemed really upset about her nightmare and I wanted to help her but I didn't know how I could help her

"Hey... it's okay" I said and stroked some hair out of her face, she smiled softly but still seemed distracted by it

"Wanna talk about it?"
"I do... but... I'm scared..."

"Don't be scared..." I said and held her closer to me, she was slightly shaking

"You'll see me differently... you'll think I'm a monster!" She started sobbing into me and holding me tightly

"I promise. I won't think of you differently..."
"Do you swear."
"I swear on my own life"

She let go slightly and sighed

"I did something when I was younger..." she started
"It was an accident... I should've thought better... I was stupid... stupid..." she slightly hit herself in the head until I put my hand on her wrists as it was concerning for her to do something like this...

"Where did you used to life?" She asks all of a sudden
"Huh?" I replied being confused

"The house that burnt down. Where was it."
"Why do you want to know?"
"Y/N. Seriously."

"Uh... [insert street name and house number]... why?"

She seemed even more distressed then before and she tried to get out of my grasp but I held her, forced her to stay still and look at me

"Jinx your scaring me... what did you do..."

"I'm sorry Y/N! I'm so sorry!" She began shaking and trying to make me leg go off her... it finally clicked.

"Did..." I tried to speak but I couldn't bare saying it... it hurt me, the girl that I love... she couldn't have... right...

"I did it."

"I started the fire."

I looked at her and my eyes were watering, I didn't know what to think anymore

Jinx was breaking down even more but I held her into my chest.

I now know who caused my injuries. But I don't really care enough to 'want revenge'

"I forgive you." I whispered in her ear.

To be honest... im not sure what to think. All my grief for my father has gone.

I never knew him, but my mother.... All I can remember is just her in wheelchairs and always attached to a machine.

The fire only made her bed bound.

I stroked Jinx's head and just rested in her closely. I didn't want to think about what she just told me... I just wanted to feel her as I did before. Not just get reminded of past angst