Elodie Hart;
"Tasting her is like heaven. But Harlow isn't heaven. Nor is she hell; Harlow is the f*cking devil herself, with her sharp intimidation and her cruel way of things, but she tastes nothing like it. She tastes of sweetness and determinati...
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Two days ago was my first dancing lesson, and honestly, I've sort of started getting used to them. I don't necessarily like that I spend a few hours away from my friends, but I know that it will be worth it.
I mean, maybe not the attack, but hopefully what I get in exchange for it. The money. The driving lessons.
And also the self-defence lessons, which I happen to be starting today.
Today is probably the busiest day of my week. After breakfast I go to Adrianna's club again with Harlow, so she can teach me some more things. I'm already doing well, and I've been allowed to practice on my own whilst I'm there, to get a feel of how it might be when I'm dancing without the help. I've not only impressed Adrianna, (and Harlow; in fact, I've spotted her grinning at me multiple times as I continued to dance correctly) but I've also impressed myself.
And I'm happy that I can master this, and build up my confidence for the night I'll need it most. Though, I'm aware that I definitely won't be fully prepared for it. Here, I'm just dancing in front of Harlow and Adrianna. When I'm out there, there'll be dozens of men, all watching me.
Yesterday, Adrianna reminded me of this, and my stomach churned at the thought. But I had to be reminded of it, I had to prepare the best I could.
Two days ago, when we left the club, things happened. In Harlow's backseat. And God, I gave in so easy to her, after telling myself I wouldn't. But when it comes to her, things become irresistible. I don't know why that is, and I certainly don't want it to be that way, because it's like I lose control over things when I'm with her.
I'm also considering that I'm not alone on that feeling. Her actions towards me two days ago showed something different than usual. At least I think. Hopefully, I'm not just overthinking anything.
Back to why my day is busy today...
After my dancing lessons with Adrianna, I'm set to start some self defence training with Harlow.
I'm calling it self defence training, because as she agreed to teach me how to use a gun, she wouldn't let me change her mind on additional training. I guess that is quite logical. So, self-defence lessons it is.
Those are to happen later on, after the dance lessons, which I'm currently attending.
Over these last two days, including the hours I put in today, I've learned quite a bit. Adrianna taught me, then left me to do things myself and improvise a routine. I wouldn't be perfect, and I definitely wouldn't know as much as any girl who danced for a real job, but I knew what I needed for a one time thing. And after that was over, no more lessons, and no more dangerous events to be involved in.
Thank the lord.
It's leading up to three o'clock in the afternoon, and Harlow has mentioned we leave by four, so that Adrianna and the other girls she has that work at the club, can open up and start getting things ready.
