UNHOLY

#UNHOLY15

"So...what do you want to talk about?"

Tiningnan ko siya at nakitang pinapanood niya ang bawat galaw ko.

Nandito parin kami sa hapag kainan at hindi ko maipagkakailang busog na busog ako sa luto ng lalaki.

Tumikhim muna ako bago umayos ng upo. Kung hindi lang dahil sa ngisi nito ay iisipin kong napaka seryoso nito. Iba kasi ang mga mata nito. Akala mo palaging galit. Kung hindi lang siya tatawa o kahit ngisi man lang o kahit ngiti ay maiisip mong palagi siyang may kaaway.

"About what happened last night...I-"

"Regret it?"

Hindi ko pa tapos ang sasabihin ko nang inunahan niya ako. Suminghap ako. Did I regret what happened last night?

Pilit kong kinakapa ang pagsisisi sa kalooban ko ngunit kahit katiting ay wala akong naramdaman.

"No..." mahina kong sagot.

Tumaas ang kilay nito na para bang hindi naniniwala.

"I won't still be here if that's the case, Nikolai. I know what I did last night and I...I did not regret it."

"Good to fucking hear that. Ayaw ko rin na pagsisisihan mo kaya...ginalingan ko." Sabi nito pagkatapos ay ngumisi.

Nag iinit ang mukha ko dahil sa sinabi niya. I just glared at him to hide it.

"Can we be serious? Kahit ngayon lang. if you can't, I'll just go home and rest. Mas pinapasakit mo ang ulo ko." Sabi ko.

Tumawa ito at umayos ng upo. Sumeryoso naman ito pagkatapos.

Bumuntong hininga pa ako ng isang beses pagkatapos ay tiningnan ito sa mga mata.

"I know that we are both adult...what happened was wrong, we both know that. But...we did it with each other's consent...."

"Sana lang...walang ibang makakaalam at...hindi na sana maulit pa ito. What happened was fun, but I am a married woman. I may sound hypocrite pero...I'll leave it at that. Pinagbigyan ko na ang sarili ko."

Konting katahimikan ang pumaibabaw sa aming dalawa. Nagtitigan lang kami at para bang tinitimbang ang mga bagay.

Akala ko ay hindi na ito magsasalita kaya akmang tatayo na sana ako.

"I like it..."

Bumaling ako sa kanya at umupo ulit nang magsalita.

"I like what happened to us...and no, I don't kiss and tell or go around and tell people about my sex life, Dakota."

Gumaan naman ang pakiramdam ko sa sinabi niya.

"But...I can't promise that it will not happen again."

Akmang magsasalita pa ako ulit ngunit hindi niya ako binigyan ng pagkakataon.

"We can't deny the tension between us. It's like we're glued to each other and I know you can feel that. I don't care about your husband. If he is doing this behind your back...then that means you can do it too."

Gulat naman ako sa sinabi nito.

"Ano bang gusto mo pang mangyari? Nakuha mo na ako. Wala kang aasahan sa akin. I am not a virgin when something happened between us last night because I gave it to my husband. Is it the thrill? Is it the fun of having sex with a married woman? Even you are in relationship?"

I may sounded rude but I just want him to understand what I am trying to say. I want us to be clarified since we are not kids anymore.

But the devil just chuckled. Umiiling iling pa ito at pinaglaruan ang ibabang labi. Napatingin tuloy ako doon.

"First of, I am not in a relationship. I ended it a long time hindi lang alam ng parents ko. Second, like I said, I don't care if you are married or not. There is something about you that makes me crave for you. And no, it's not just the thrill, it's also about the pleasure...the company and your presence. And you can let yourself feel what I feel if you just go with the flow. You can use me, I won't mind."

Gulat ko itong tiningnan.

Hanggang sa mapagdesisyonan kong umuwi na at sinabing pag iisipan ko ang lahat.

Hindi madaling magdesisyon nang basta basta dahil alam kong kung malalaman ng pamilya ko ang ginagawa ko ay alam kong malaking problema ang mangyayari. This is not just about my marriage with Adrian. This is about my family.

Napagdesisyonan kong umuwi sa bahay ng mga magulang ko dahil pagod ako at ayokong harapin muna si Adrian. I just realized, malaki ang kontribusyon niya sa stress na natatanggap nitong mga nakaraan.

Hindi ko hinayaang ihatid pa ako ni Nikolai dahil ayoko nang maramdaman ang presensya niya ng mas matagal.

What he said earlier made sense to me. There is something...a string that serves as our connection to each other. At hindi ko rin maipagkakailanang tensyon na nararamdaman sa tuwing nandyan siya. Made sense because I just ended up in his bed last night.

He was gripping on my hips while pounding so hard inside. He held both of my legs and formed a letter "V" while going inside and out of me. What made me crazier was when he stopped and flipped me over just to fuck me from behind.

He was ruthless...he was not gentle but I like it more. I like it when he poured all his frustrations and lust all over me. We did more positions other than what we did in bed. He made me stand up and face the whole body mirror. He bended my body and without any word, he thrusted so hard I can feel him in my cervix-

"Ma'am nandito na po tayo."

Napadilat ako dahil sa tawag ng taxi driver.

Putang ina nakakahiya. Memories of what we did last night flashed through my eyes. Ni hindi ako makatingin sa driver at kumuha nalang ng pamasahe sa bag pagkatapos ay kaagad bumaba kaagad matapos magbayad. Inayos ko pa ang sarili bago ako tuluyang pumasok. I just realized that I felt wet down there.Was this because of what I just remembered earlier?

I felt sticky and so ashamed dahil nakuha ko pang ma turn on habang nasa taxi kanina.

Kasalanan to ni Nikolai.

Fucking Vladislav!