UNHOLY

LAST CHAPTER

I was smiling while tears are flowing from my eyes. But my heart is happy and at peace.

What happened hurt me because no matter what, I loved them as my parents.

When Nikolai saw me, he immediately stood up and walked towards me with anger and worry in his eyes. Baka akala niya ay sinaktan ako kaya ako umiiyak ngayon.

I hugged him and told him I'm okay.

"I'm okay...I'm happy.."

Nagdikit ang kilay nito. "How can you say you are happy when I can see your tears and pain on your eyes?"

Mas lalo akong napaiyak. "These are tears of joy, love."

Hindi parin siya kumbinsido pero hinayaan niya nalang ako at inalalayan na papunta sa kotse. Medyo dumaing ako kasi sumakit ang tiyan ko...baka napagod din si baby sa kakaiyak ko sa loob. Nag alala si Nikolai kaya medyo binilisan niya ang pagmamaneho para makauwi na kami...hindi naman ganoon kabilis. Sakto lang na hindi kami mapapahamak.

Tahimik parin ako sa kotse kahit hindi na lumuluha. I just realized so many things after the talk.

Nang makauwi ay kaagad akong tinulungan ni Nikolai na maglinis ng katawan at magpalit ng damit. He kissed me so many times and hugged me to sleep. He didn't ask about what we talked and respected my silence. He knew I will tell him...it's just..I was not ready yet.

Ilang araw pa ang lumipas bago ako bumalik sa normal. Noong mga nakaraang araw kasi ay medyo hindi ako umiimik...tumatango lang kapag kinakausap. Alam kong mag aalala na si Nikolai sa akin kaya't nang maramdamang okay na ang pakiramdam ko ay lumabas ako ng kwarto at hinanap ko siya. I noticed that the sliding door from the balcony is open so I decided to go there... and there...I found the love of my life...pero may kausap yata sa telepono.

Aalis na sana ako ngunit nang marinig ko ang pangalan ng kausap niya ay para akong naitulos at mas lalong naging kuryuso sa kung ano ang pinag uusapan nila.

"I don't know, Adrian...I am worried. Hindi pa kami mag uusap simula noong nag usap sila ng mga magulang niya...yeah and I don't want to ask. I'll just wait because I know she'll come around."

Natahimik ito sandali at para bang hinihintay ang sagot sa kabilang linya. "No! I am confident! She won't leave me, she said. Whatever, fucker! Bye!"

Kailan pa sila naging mag callmate ni Adrian?

But I am happy...everything is falling into places.

Bago paman niya ako makita ay nagpunta ako sa kusina upang kumuha ng tubig. Ayoko namang malaman niyang nakiki chismis ako sa usapan ng may usapan ano!

Ngunit  ilang segundo palang ang lumipas ay may narinig na akong yapak ng mga paa papunta sa kung nasaan ako.

"Hey..." he called.

I turned around and went to him. Hugged him and placed my face in his chest.

"I miss you.." i said.

He also hugged me. Hinaplos haplos iya pa ang likod ko. Pagilid akong nakayakap sa kanya dahil sa tiyan ko.

"Are you ready to talk, now?" He asked after kissing me in my forehead.

I looked up to him and smiled. "Yes, love. Thank you for being patient with me for the past few days...I love you."

Ngumisi naman ito. "Ofcourse, love. And I love you more."

We settled in our couch...Ilang minuto ang lumipas at walang nagsalita sa amin. We were just holding each other...feeling each other's skin.

"I was a rape child....reason why they couldn't treat me as their own.."

Napahinto sa paghaplos si Nikolai nang marinig ang sinabi ko ngunit hindi siya umimik at hinayaan akong magsalita.

"He's not my biological father...it was their bestfriend...t-they.." I cleared my throat before I continued. " They were close friends...my biological dad had feelings with my mom but she doesn't...especially because she and dad are in a relationship. My biological dad did not take it lightly so to make ot short...h-he did what only a monster can do to a human...t-to a woman..."

"A-And so..here I am...I suffered...they brought me into this world to suffer...to have their own revenge...through me...and I understand...even if It's not my fault...but I understand them."

Hinarap niya ako sa kanya. "Love.." his eyes are full of worry.

"Don't worry, love...I am fine. And I am relieved. They wanted me out of their lives...and after eveything that had happened...I'm okay with it...I was hurt, yes because even though they did not love...I loved them.."

"Now, I chose to be at peace. I thanked them for bringing me into this world because I was brought to you...I was not blessed with a loving family but I am blessed with a very loving partner..."

I closed my eyes when he brought his hands to my face.

"I am here. I am your family now. We'll build our own family...you and I and this little one...and our future babies..."

"Adrian and his family are also there for you..."

"I know..."

"And please, I am not just your partner or your person...I am also your friend. If you are in doubt, confused, hurt or happy...let me know. I am always all ears for you no matter what."

"Ganoon ka rin sa akin."

Mahabang pag uusap ang nangyari nang gabing iyon. Hindi lang tungkol nangyari noong mga nakaraan kundi pati na rin sa mangyayari pa sa kasalukuyan. We did plan for what we want with our family.

And we chose not to know our baby's gender. Malapit narin naman kasi akong manganak kaya gusto nalang naming ma surprise.

Wala namang problema sa mga gamit na nabili ko dahil noong stress ako at agitated sa pagkikita namin ng magulang ko ay nag o-online shopping ako. Puro neutral colors ng mga gamit na pambata ang binili ko.

And surprisingly, Nikolai's parents brought us baby things as well. From crib to clothes to toys. Which made us so happy.

Alam naming may madadaanan pa kami sa kinabukasan pero nangako kaming manatiling matatag para sa isa't isa. At para sa pamilya.

We will build our own happiness.