Dalawang linggo na ang nakalipas magmula noong nagkita kami ni Jacob. I didn't talk to him, but I swear to God I really wanted to.
When I saw him, I just froze. I was thinking if I was going to talk to him or just ignore him. And then I chose to ignore him.
Why? Because I was thinking about his career. I know how much he loves what he has and who he is now. He's enjoying his life. He's happy without me... without us.
I panicked when I saw him. I was about to talk to him, but thank God I changed my mind. I thought that what if he's already in a relationship now? If I'm going to tell him that we have a child, would he accept Lope? And what if not? I don't want to know. I'm scared.
I saw in his eyes that he wanted to talk to me, that he wanted to explain. Thanks to Ate Lana, she came back exactly when I needed her.
After that, we went home. I didn't sleep well that night because of him. It's been a while since the last time I saw him.
"Mama, are you okay?" napalingon ako kay Lope at napatigil sa pag-iisip.
Tumango ako sa kanya. "Y-yeah, of course. Mama's fine." I said. "Do you want to eat?" I asked.
Kumunot ang noo niya. "I just ate my breakfast po," she said. "You already washed the dishes, mama."
Mariin akong napapikit. "Oh, right. Sorry, I was just thinking about something." I said.
"Okay po," she said. "I need to go to school na po."
"Oh, shoot!" dali-dali akong umakyat sa taas para kuhanin ang susi ng kotse. "Let's go, Lope." aya ko sa kanya.
Mabuti na lang at sakto lang ang dating namin. Hinintay ko si Lope na matapos sa class niya.
"Bakit parang lutang ka these past few days?" Kuya Jon asked.
Nakauwi na kami sa bahay ni Lope. Umakyat na siya sa taas at ako naman ay narito ngayon sa kusina kasama si kuya.
Tumingin lang ako sa kanya, pinag-iisipan kung sasabihin ko ba sa kanya o hindi.
Wala akong pinagsabihan maski ang mga kaibigan ko. Pero alam kong alam nina Ethan na narito si Jacob ngayon.
"Uh, it's because... I saw Lope's dad at the concert--"
"You saw him? Why you didn't tell me? It was two weeks ago, Emily. You should've told me." he said.
I sighed. "I-I'm sorry, okay? I didn't know what to do-- until now." sabi ko at napasapo sa noo. "Oh, god. Please tell me what to do, kuya. I really want to talk to him, but I'm scared at the same time." I said.
"Scared of what?" he asked.
I started to get emotional. "What if he's with someone else now? What if it's not me anymore? And what if I told him about Lope? What if he doesn't want to accept her? I-Im scared, kuya..." I cried.
Lumapit siya agad sa 'kin para yakapin ako. "Shh, breathe, Emily. Just calm down," he said. Pagtapos kong umiyak sa kanya, inabutan niya ako ng isang basong tubig.
Nang kumalma na ako, nagsimula ulit akong magsalita. "I'm scared, but I really want to know if he still loves me or not." I said.
"Then ask him, Em." he said. "Do it for you and Lope. You need answers. If he has someone else now, then move on. That's life." he said.
Hindi na ako sumagot at pinag-isipan na lang nang mabuti ang sinabi niya. Hindi ko na talaga alam ang gagawin ko. Ayoko namang makigulo pa sa mga kaibigan ko, alam kong may sari-sarili silang problema.
Nasa mall ako ngayon para bumili ng cake. Birthday kasi ngayon ni Kuya Jon. Nakasanayan na kasi namin na rito bumili ng cake every occasion.
Kahit saan ako makarating ay naririnig ko ang pangalan ni Jacob. Usap-usapan kasi na narito pa rin siya hanggang ngayon.
Isang linggo na ang nakalipas at hanggang ngayon ay pinag-iisipan ko pa rin 'yong sinabi ni Kuya Jon. Kung gusto ko man siyang kausapin, paano? Iistorbohin ko pa sina Ethan?
Tinigil ko muna kakaisip at dumiretso na lang sa pupuntahan ko. It was already prepared kaya binayaran ko na lang 'yon.
Napahinto ako sa paglalakad nang makita ko si Jacob sa may toy store. He was wearing a cap. I saw him walking while carrying a kid. I think she's around Lope's age.
My heart beat fast when I saw a girl smiling at them. She walked towards them, and she kissed the kid. Kinuha niya 'yon kay Jacob at ibinaba.
Oh, god. That's it. He has a family now. I won't ruin a family again, ever.
Sa tingin ko alam ko na ang gagawin ko sa sinabi ni Kuya Jon. Mananahimik na lang ako. I'm happy that he's happy, though. I saw his smile, it's genuine.
Hindi ko sila sisirain, I fucking won't. Kaya kong palakihin si Lope. Kakayanin ko naman sigurong tanggapin ang lahat... para kay Lope.
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