Seungmins POV
I had gotten all of my things from the storage rooms and was now looking for my dorm, it was number 2801 . I hoped to god I was alone but there were so many students the chances were slim.
After a good while of searching I found the room and unlocked it with the keys I had been given, oh yeah someone else lived here for sure.
The lights had all been left on , there were pizza boxes on the living room table and alchol split all over the place.
I sighed and brought my stuff into the bedroom which to my discomfort was just one room with two beds in it .
I put all my stuff on the un occupied side of the room then walked out
" if I'm living here it is not going to look like this" I sighed out
I walked into the living room with a bin liner at hand and began to throw away all the empty cans of alcohol and pizza boxes .
I put it all in the trash then began wiping the alchol covered table down.
" what a mess" I scoffed " I think that's it though."
The entire place smelt like beer which I had to change, I brought out the only fragrance my perfume and began spraying the whole place so it smelt like candy.
" much better" I smiled then walking back through to the bedroom room unpack my things.
I made sure my bed was made neatly , putting a few plushies at the end of it. I then moved onto my desk, setting out all of my art supplies and books neatly . Then the wardrobe, I put all the clothes in order of colour , the colour sections were set out in dark to light shades. I smiled to myself putting up a few posters so it didn't look to bad. My favourite day6 poster above my desk of course. I put my skin care and makeup bags in the bathroom in a cupboard below the sink and considered my job complete, apart from putting my guitar somewhere .
I walked back into the now complete bedroom and flipped onto the bed , my bed .
I pulled out my favourite book, reading with a smile on my face as the blissful silence filled my ears.
But alas all good things must come to an end.
I heard the front door open and sighed , standing up and putting my book away. If I wanted to not be awkward as hell in this house I needed to atleast introduce myself to the person .
I sat back down on my bed , patiently awaiting their arrival
The bedroom door opened and .....shit.
Jeongin walked in, throwing his bag onto the floor and falling onto his messy bed .
He sat up suddenly noticing I was there.
" oh , hey seungmin " he said awkwardly " so you're my new room ma--"
I got up and walked away into the bathroom.
I locked myself in and slumped against the door until my butt touched the ground .
I put my face in my knees and hugged them
" can I never escape this living hell" I said to myself " when will he get out of my life?" I realised tears were spilling down my face "this is all your fault you stupid ugly worthless fag" I clutched the fabric of my jeans tightly, letting my own words echo around in my head " if you hadn't talked to him that one time in highschool none of this would be happening. You're so stupid!"
I pulled down my jeans and reached for my makeup bag in the cupboard.
I opened my eyeshadow pallet and pulled out my blade.
I stared at it , you deserve this. You stupid ugly worthless fag , the words echoed in my mind once more .
" that's all you are seungmin, a stupid" I sliced my thigh "ugly " I sliced it again " worthless '" I sliced the other " fag" I choked on the words, repeating that cycle fifteen times " mom was right , that is all you are and all you ever will be kim seungmin "
Suddenly there was a knock "seungmin hate to interrupted but I need to p--"
" FUCK OFF" I yelled in an outburst of rage sadness and depression " USE THE KITCHEN SINK I DONT CARE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND GET OUT OF MY LIFE"
" wow, are you o--"
" DO I SOUND OK!?"
" no.... seungmin please let me in" he said , a worried tone in his voice " it's not even about using the toilet anymore. But If you dont let me in I know how to pick locks and I'm checking on you either way."
I panickingly pulled up my trousers, wincing as they covered my new cuts. I put the blade back into my eyeshadow pallet and into my makeup bag then back into the cupboard.
I opened the door and immediately jeongins eyes widened.
He snatched my hands
" why is there blood on your hands? why is there blood seeping through your jeans! Seungmin what happened?!" His eyes were fearful, I smacked his hands away
" why do you car--"
" because if you're self harming and it's my fault I wont ever be able to forgive myself " he cut me off " seungmin, are you self harming?"
" I....." I froze up, tears slipping down my face once more
Suddenly he pulled me into a hug, the man who had been bullying me for so long was now hugging me .
(A/n btw I switched up their heights so jeongin and seungmin have swapped but all the others are the same )
My face was buried in his chest, my hands clutching onto his white t shirt. .
" I'm sorry seungmin " he choked out " I never wanted any of this, I never wanted to hurt you! I swear it was all just a big mistake "
I nodded and continued crying, believing his sincere words.
" please, let me help you clean yourself up " he asked
" ok " I sniffed, leading him back into the bathroom to help me
