My Only Sunshine

Chapter 14

Hanging out with Auster again, eating tacos and tacos like we used to every weekend made me glad we were friends again.

"I could eat these for the rest of my life!" I groan out, licking the sauce off my fingers, making Auster grin.

"I don't know about that, I don't know about you, but my mouth is still on fire." He cringed out, sitting back in his seat.

I couldn't help but laugh, I even asked if he was sure he wanted the flaming hot nacho to share with me and just like last time, he agreed and then regretted it as he started to complain he needed a jug of milk to wash it down with.

"So, why's it complicated?" Auster asks, as I hum out, looking at him.

"Damien Wilder, right?" My heart skipped a beat as he said his name. "I... and don't judge me, but I asked around about him and Sammy actually knows his brother Isaac."

I could do nothing but nod my head as I held my glass with both hands, staring at it as Auster paused for a moment, before speaking again.

"Pretty badass guy I'll say that, but other than that I don't think he's right for you Aelia."

"Why?" I said without thinking as my chest clenched painfully as I gripped the glass in my hand.

"Because he's older?" I looked at Auster as he shrugged, then sighed out.

"He's got a reputation Aelia, I just don't want you to get hurt, it's not because he's older."

Damien had a reputation? I guessed as much, I saw pictures of him from when he was my age and older, he was surrounded by girls in the photos as much as he was surround but guys, it should shock me, but all it did was hurt.

He wasn't mine, he was free to do what he wanted, and I had no right to get upset about something he did when I was just a child.

"I'm saying this as a guy, and from what I can see is that he's still messing around with other women, just this morning I saw him with a bunch of girls by-"

"Look." I interrupt him, not wanting to hear anymore. "I get it, just... can we not talk about him right now and just talk about something else?"

It hurt, even from Auster's mouth it stung more then I liked to admit, I was still pretty much halfway in love with Damien and hearing his name now made it all the harder to stop thinking about him.

"Your brother..." I paused. "Tell him thanks, for the bagels... and sorry for ignoring him last night."

"Oh." He rubbed his neck, embarrassed as he avoided my eyes. "I kind of told him what I said to you, he must have yelled at me for like two hours Friday night."

"I felt like shit the whole weekend, I wanted to see you, but Aaron said he'd check up on you for me." He smiled shyly. "I guess we both needed space to cool off."

"I don't know, I could've used a friend." I smiled sadly as I looked around outside the sitting area we currently sat at, next to the beach walk.

A comfortable silence fell on us as I looked out at the ocean and the kids playing with their parents near the shallow water, collecting colourful rocks making me smile at how nice it must be.

My childhood was nothing like this, I always wanted to go to the beach, but my foster parents all refused saying they hated sand and screaming children, and getting wet, so all I could do was watch.

Damien grew up in a loved household, his family were great and loving people, and his childhood was filled with happy memories, I'm sure Auster's was just as exciting too, with loving parents and happy memories.