Losing You | 𝘽𝙀𝙊𝙈𝙅𝙐𝙉

𝙉𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧

Yeonjun rang the doorbell for the 4th time. Kai, open the door it's Hyung
After two more tries he could finally hear slow footsteps walking over to the door. The door finally opened revealing Kai looking more messed up than ever. What ? He looked at the older with sleepy eyes. What are you still doing here? We're supposed to be at the party. And what's with the messed up look, are you okay?
I swear to god, Hyung. Stop talking. Kai said as he turned his back and started walking away. Yeonjun let out a small laugh. Someone's cranky today.
Kai glared at the older before lying down on the sofa and turning on the tv attempting to go back at watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s until yeonjun shut it off again.

Kai cmon we gotta move. Did mr choi's long ass speech about how important this party is fail to reach your ears? Kai ignored. If this is about the fight we had then please kai I told you, I care about you. Yeonjun went down on his knees as he looked at Kai, you're not alone kai, I'm here. I'm sorry I wasn't for a while, okay? But now I am so let's get going. Kai sighed

Im not mad at you Hyung. Kai sat back up well I was but that's not the reason I don't wanna go.
Then what is it?
Kai groaned his both hands now went up on the sides of his head
I don't know how to face him
Who?
Soobin
WHAT?
Beomgyu
Yeonjun glared at the panicking guy
Okay soobin

What do you mean kai? Did that guy do something to you?
No Hyung he didn't do anything well he did but nothing bad. We- kai hesitated. He's always been scared of angry jun somehow he manages to panick him more than anyone ever has.

We-?
We're kind of- a thing? But also not
WHAT THE FUCK? Yeonjun was now standing up. Kai you know he's not - what's wrong with you?
Shut it Hyung. He's not that bad idk what he has with you but he helped me numerous times when you weren't here. He took care of me when I was feeling upset, he took care of me when I was drunk on the streets-

WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU DRUNK.? Yeonjun screamed, he knows Kai never drinks and exactly why he doesn't. Kai's told him everything from how his mother was too much in love to leave his alcoholic father and ended up getting killed to how he spent the rest of his life being a slave for his so called alcoholic uncle. Which is another one of the reasons why yeonjun wanted to be there for him so bad.

OH MY GOD ONE PROBLEM AT A TIME PLEASE kai screamed out of frustration. Yeonjun looked at him and sighed, how did this happen?
That day when we fought, those old memories came flooding back I couldn't deal so I tried to find a way to make it go away. It got out of hand but soobin helped me, after that a few days ago we had a moment Kai couldn't figure out whether to continue the next sentence we almost kissed-
Go on I'm not angry yeonjun said while gritting his teeth
So why didn't you?
I couldn't-
Hyung he-
he had that same look in his eyes it scares me. It still does.
Kai. You're gon have to try and be more clear, what look? Why does it scare you? Kai sighed, the look you and mom had when you two were hurting because of your love for someone else
Yeonjun did not expect that but he gets where he's coming from. In the entire life of a guy who's only watched examples of "love kills" and "love hurts", it's obvious for him to be scared.

Do you really like him? Kai fell silent. Yeonjun looked at him
Trust me. It gets easier once you admit certain things. Kai sighed

Yes.

Kai did you ever think of your mom might have been the only one in love among your parents? Kai looked at him confused what I mean to say is, She was the only one In love with your dad he did not love her and things didn't end well for her but me and beomgyu, even if it hurt the both of us for a while we're still here, together, we both love each other. It takes both sides to form a strong bond.

If soobin really is the great guy you said he is and he likes you, he's probably worth giving a chance to. Only thing you need to do is heal first. You've been running away not wanting to face all the scars people left on you, with these fears buried inside you, you can never fully love or let someone love you. So take time. And once you're ready for it, don't hold back. You never know what something so small can turn into the single greatest thing of your life. Don't lose your chance for future happiness because of scars from the past

Yeonjun loved the hopeful look on the younger's eyes. He hugged him I'll always be here.
Now cmon, as much as I hate to say it, you have some talking to do with soobin.