El Grande Series 3: Gage De Silva

CHAPTER 10

Chapter 10

Gage Pov

For the nth time, I found myself admiring Lei's face. I wonder how He created this kind of face. It was just so beautiful—too gorgeous for me not to stare. Lei has a small heart-shaped face. He's as white as paper, unlike the first time we met; I think he has gotten paler now. Hindi ko lang alam kung dati na ba siyang ganito ka-puti or it's just that ngayon ko lang siya natitigan ng ganito. I got to study his face peacefully as he was in a deep slumber. Even though Lei was sleeping, he still looked like an angel. He appeared unbothered and very comfortable sleeping in my arms.

I was about to touch his small pink lips when his nose wrinkled. Naka-side view kasi ako sa kanya at kahit na mataas na ang araw, kahit papaano natatabunan siya ng anino ko. Muli kasi kaming nakatulog matapos ang maliit naming pag-uusap kanina at ngayon nauna akong nagising sa kanya pero ayaw ko munang umalis sa kama. Gusto ko pang titigan ang mukha ni Lei.

Kaya rin ako hindi umaalis dito ngayon sa kama dahil natatakot ako na baka nasobrahan ang ginawa ko sa kanya kagabi. I took him a couple of times, and I'm afraid that he was in pain when he woke up.

I sighed.

Ganito rin kaya ang mga magulang ko? Ganito rin kaya ang mga kapatid ko na may takot at sayang nararamdaman, when they meet their other half? As of now, hindi ko pa alam kung ano ang patutunguhan nitong relasyon namin ni Lei. He was also forced. We're both trapped in this arranged marriage thing; however, right now, I am good with Lei. I feel so good around him, though I have some uneasiness because I don't know what's running through Lei's head. I don't know if he wants me or if he wants to work things out for us. He wasn't vocal about his feelings and hardly opens up his thoughts with me. I feel like he's holding himself back, that something is chaining him from opening his thoughts and heart to me.

I stroke his soft cacao hair. I've been busy with my last project, so we don't have much time to be together even though he lives with me, but he was able to lure me into his den. It's unfair to me that I'm giving this a shot while he doesn't even think about me. I knew I was his crush then, and that's not really enough for me.

I'm not only doing this because I've grown fond of Leister; I'm also doing my best because I don't want to disappoint my parents. I don't want them to think I'm always a failure, that I'm not good enough. Dati kasi lagi na nila akong pini-pressure about that things and these things. They always directed my life before, and my showbiz career was my first-ever decision. I thought that excelling in my career would change their minds, but I was wrong.

Kaya ngayon susubukan kong maging successful sa amin ni Lei. I will give it a shot. I'm finally bidding farewell to my bachelor years. No more women and flings. No more one-night stands. No more casual relationships.

I kissed Lei's forehead before retracting my arms away from him. Gusto ko man siyang bantayan pa kaso kailangan kong magluto ng makakain niya. Alam kong pagod na pagod rin siya dahil sa ginawa namin kagabi.

Malaki ang ngiti kong humanap ng masusuot sa aking walk in closet. May nakita akong isang baby blue na tshirt at iyon na ang pinares ko sa aking pants. Pagkalabas ko ng walk-in-closet ay kinuha ko ang aking telepono upang tawagan si Chalyn, my very understanding manager for years. Kahit may mga anak siya ay very dedicated pa rin sa kanyang trabaho.

"Cha, I can't make it to the taping right now." saad ko nanag sagutin nito ang aking tawag.

"Huh? Bakit Gage? Nandito na ang mga crew at si Millie." Millie was my partner in this movie project.

Tiningnan ko si Lei na tulog pa rin. I can't leave him after our night. Ayaw ko nang isipin niya na tintrato ko siya na kagaya sa mga flings ko.

"I'm really sorry, Cha. May importante akong inaasikaso ngayon."