Late Night Thoughts

Fear

Overwhelming and distracting
My fear cannot keep ideas to itself
Instead it must take control
It guides my hands
And gives the world new meaning
Have I fallen in love with it?
The symptoms are the same
I cannot eat
I cannot sleep
I cannot breathe
All in the name of it
There's too little time
There's no way out and yet I keep searching for one
Dread touches my fingertips
And soon we're shaking hands
As if meeting for the first time
Pins and needles fill my vacant limbs
Until my whole feels like my head
And I cannot move
Failure cannot be an option
And yet that's what's whispered in my ear
As fear squeezes me from behind
And laughs softly
As if it's name were fate

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doomsday- Lizzie McAlpine
What Was I Made For?- Billie Eilish
Generation Why- Conan Gray