Depths Of Revenge

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Parish POV

Parish's Childhood home

3 weeks later (January 27th)

I'm laying down in my room in the house where I grew up In thinking that this is all I ever known and some how I feel like I can't even settle in here anymore I feel empty and lost where ever I go lately like I don't even know who I am anymore or where I belong hoping that I will find out soon what is missing so I'm laying here in my bed with my thoughts pacing

I hear a knock at the door and it's Eleanor the women who I always thought was my actual mother

Parish Sweetie are you still in here? Honey is everything alright I came to check in on you , because you really haven't been out of your room much since you arrived back home ... are you trying to avoid us because of that little hiccup that Ashley had with you? Because if so we're not upset at all you handled it very well

Parish I'm coming in

I hear the door turn so I sit up and straighten my self up a bit

Hi honey , what's wrong I can see that look on your face of destress , want to talk about it?

Ughh I'm really not trying to make you or anybody feel like I'm avoiding you's ... it's just that I don't know ma I feel like I'm not the same person you know like I don't know what I missed out on or who I would've been like I don't know who I really am or where I belong anymore sometimes I wish I never actually found out the truth now because now I'm wishing-things were different between me and Hilary cause maybe just maybe I wouldn't be sitting here depressed as well also I know she's my biological mother and for some reason I keep thinking to myself that I will never look at her that way because your the only mother I ever known. The one who actually took me in and took care of me but here I am feeling lost in my thoughts .. why does it hurt this bad you think after all this time I would be over it because I have you and Emerson which I'm very grateful for I wouldn't want anyone else as my parents honestly thank you both for everything

Aww baby anytime but look here at me please and listen up
It's going to hurt no matter what baby because you don't know the truth yet and you're scared to find that out as well I get that but I wouldn't be worried about the past or be worried about what you missed or who you would've became if things went differently because truthfully sweetie I think you're amazing just the way you're no matter where you grown up or who raised you .. you will always had been a amazing young man .. that I would love very much no matter what I hope you do know that ... I also think that maybe just maybe you and Hilary will be able to work on things I know it's hard to see that right now but maybe you need to just hear her out and take the closure that you need even if it hurts a bit ... you won't know how she really feels either until you actually hear her out ... now I know that can't change the way you feel about everything or the way things planned out but it might actually help you see things a little clearer and make you feel better ...