Willium Valen and The Curse of Hades

Chapter 17-Hating Everything Right Now

Willium... Oh great, another nightmare, I was tired of having them. Every second was a nightmare, a vision. Why couldn't Zeus get over me, and find someone else to traumatize? I've had enough. I looked around, I was in the library, the library always had such a warm feeling to it, but it seemed so cold and empty though, like something was wrong and missing. This is how it always felt when Zeus was around, that horrible feeling. Cold and empty, so helpless and weak, that's how he made me feel."What do you want with me?" I asked, my voice was quivering with fear. I always hated my voice, it was so quiet and made me sound weak every time I talked. I hated being afraid of him. It made me feel so hopeless, but that's how he wanted me. I want you dead, "You failed," I said. I didn't fail, it was that anomaly, "Don't call him that!" I exclaimed. I hated that people would think of Geo like that, some meaningless mistake, he was more than that, he was so much better than all of that stupid stuff people said about him. Oh! Well, I'm sorry, didn't mean to hurt your boyfriend's feelings,"He's not my..." I sighed, I felt that same sadness all over me. I messed up, now Zeus knew how I felt about Geo, he knew how to hurt me, by hurting him. I think I now know why Zeus brought Geo and Willow into the dreamscape, to hurt me, by hurting them. It felt like his hands were all over me again, I felt so helpless, Zeus made me feel so meaningless. What he did to me was so dehumanizing, but what would a God care about that? Zeus appeared in front of me and I started running. I didn't even need to look back, I could feel him chasing after me, I always knew when he was near. I hated that he had that power over me, but there was nothing that I could do to stop it. Then I stopped dead in my tracks, it was only a silly dream, he couldn't hurt me, not anymore. I needed to show him that I wasn't scared anymore, even though I was. I turned around but he was gone. My younger self was standing in front of me, I was about seven. My eyes were green, I was shorter, and my hair was curlyer. "Are we still afraid of the thunder man?" he asked, looking up at me. "You don't have anything to fear," I said. "But you do?" he mused. "Yes, yes I do," I sighed. "Is it the thunder man?" he asked. "No, but it's what he is capable of that scares me, the things that he's done," I explained."To you, or others?" he looked at my eyes, noticing their color. "Golden," he pointed out. "Yeah, we get help, so that one day we can stand a chance against him," I said. "Why not now?" "I guess, I have to get over my fear, I have to let myself heal," I explained. "Okay," he paused. "Why can't we heal now?""Because I'm too scared to tell anyone what he did to me," I said. "What did he do to you?" he asked. "You'll find out when you're older," I woke up from the dream, I had been shaking in my sleep again. I do that every time I have a bad dream or a vision of some sort. I looked around and sat up, everyone else was asleep, but Willow was awake. Are you okay? Willow signed. "Yeah, just a weird dream," I muttered. Are you sure? Willow signed. I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know, I guess I'm used to them by now," I sighed. And is that a bad or a good thing? Willow signed."Bad," I muttered. "Because they've been happening so often. Is everyone else asleep?" Yeah, I'm pretty sure, Willow sighed. "Wow, it's dark," I sighed. Willow looked up at the obsidian sky and nodded. It was so peaceful, it reminded me of those couple weeks last spring, just when I got back before I met Geo. Willow and I would get up early and talk until the sun rose, I missed that. Ever since I got back the first time, I've gotten to know Willow. When I disappeared she was only 10, then she was 16. I missed 6 years of her life, she was almost like a whole new person, she had grown up, without me. She'll always be my best friend. Willow tapped me on the shoulder, are you doing okay, Willium? Willow signed. Her eyes looked into mine. We used to have the same eye color before I got the blessing and my eyes turned gold. "No, not since the mindscape," I muttered. I'm sorry, Willow signed. "Don't be, you're not the reason why I'm sad," I said. Who is? Willow signed. "Zeus, he-" I stopped myself. "He's the reason why I'm sad," I said. "The mindscape, the trauma, everything," It's going to be okay, Willow signed. "That's pretty hard to believe right now, but I'll keep it in mind," I sighed. Good, Willow signed. What are the nightmares like? "I've noticed two types of them. The first is where I'm in the mindscape and reliving a memory. The second type is where I'm in the library and he's chasing me," I explained. That's weird, it's almost like he's creating the second type. Do you get them as often as the others? Willow signed. "No, they come randomly," I said Goodness, that seems horrible, Willow signed."You could say that again," I scoffed. Everyone started to shift up as the dark sky was engulfed in light. The clouds started to bleed and shine, looking as if the sky was behind them as if they had been taken away from it as the moon rose again. Sunrises and sunsets were things that my mom described as tantrums, although anything bright and obnoxious was a tantrum in her eyes. She said that it was the sun's way of letting everyone know his presence or where he was going, she said that it was so dramatic that it made it so peaceful. That's exactly how I would describe Apollo. "Did everyone sleep well?" Victor asked. "Stop being such a Dad, it's not my fault you're dead!" Skylar groaned in her sleep. "What?" Geo muttered."Skylar's not a morning person," Victor said. "What are we doing up so early, the sun's not even out!" Geo complained."The sun just rose, I mean the...moon," I said. "For the last time, the sun doesn't have roses!" Geo groaned. "Geo, get up!" I scoffed. "Ugh, I hate you!" Geo muttered as he got up. He tousled his hair and rubbed his eyes. Geo looked me in the eyes. "I know," I sighed. Geo's eyes glistened in the moon, dark brown and amber hues shining. "Good," Geo grumbled.