One-shot Compilations

Pet Peeve

If someone were to ask me what I don't like, I would say I hate bullies. Ang ayaw ko sa lahat yung binibigyan ako ng attitude ng isang tao na wala naman akong ginawa na kahit na ano. I reciprocate all that I receive. You're good to me, I will be good to you and I will triple or quadruple that. You're an asshole to me or kapag pakiramdam ko pinaplastic mo lang ako? Watch out. My loyalty would never be yours. So, the moment you cross me and I feel like I have not done anything wrong, tapos umiwas ako, nagpakumbaba at nagtiis na. If my sponge for you is overflowing with this irritation, I would lose my mind and move mountains to get it even with you. So, if umiiwas ako, pabayaan mo ako. I don't have time for people I don't care, but if you give me an attitude, I will double it back to you. I am not a saint to let go of things kapag nasasagad na. I know things people doesn't realize I know. Most of the time, tahimik lang ako even  though I may be loud while talking.

They are not that discreet when nag-aaway sila ng jowa niya. Kapag pinapalipat siya ng upuan tapos di siya lumilipat. Alam ko. Nakikita ko. Napapansin ko 'yan. Di lang ako nagsasalita. It is not my fault anyway at wala akong ginagawang masama. I am not even fucking entertaining anyone right now, but nagkakaproblema ako sa ganitong mga putanginang bagay.

If flirting with someone is considered a sin, then Jin is the only one I'm guilty of.

Let me fucking get this record straight! I don't feel good about other men liking me. I find it burdensome. I am labeled as something I am not, and I fucking hate it kapag binibigyan ako ng attitude ng mga babaeng nagkakagusto sa mga lalaking yun.

And another thing, hindi ako putanginang manhid! I just acted like I didn't notice anything. It is just burdensome sometimes to give a damn about things that are out of my control.

Ah, gusto ako ni ano? Ni ganiyan? Edi ano? Papatulan ko ba? Ano gagawin?

I am not being unappreciative. I promise, I am flattered and thankful. If I could just date all of them para walang ego na masasaktan edi ginawa ko na, but what would that make of me? A fucking slut. It is just two things: me being difficult or being a fucking slut. There is no middle ground, but can I just not like to entertain anyone I don't really see that way? It is not me being difficult, paasa, or a bitch, wala lang talaga. Kaibigan lang talaga tingin ko eh. Colleague lang talaga.

If other people want thousands of men to like them, would it be ungrateful for me to only want one man loving and lusting after me? I don't care about the attention of any other men, I just want one.

Sure, mayaman? Maraming pera. Mabait. May kotse or motor. Aanhin ko yun? When they're not the person I want? They are not the person I like.

At isa pa, ang pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat pinapahamak ako. I am not a saint, aminado naman ako pero 'wag mo naman akong ipahamak just because you like me.

If his life motto is making me hate him because it means I love him. Putanginang 'yan. Nagkakamali siya. If he feels like me hating on him and getting under my skin would be better than me not feeling anything at all for him then he got me. I am so... so... irritated and pissed off. I don't want to see him.

As a matter of fact, gusto ko magpa adjust ng oras para 'di ko na siya makita ng jowa niyang minamata ako. This is the real reason why gusto kong umupo sa part nina Jin eh. I am not intimidated by the bosses. Sila... sila ang dahilan kung bakit ayaw ko dun. They make me so uncomfortable.

Girl! Wala akong pakialam sa jowa mo!! Even if you had sex in front of me, I would just feel disgusted and not jealous. That's how I fucking hate this situation. Putanginang 'yan. Ni si Jin nga na gusto ko, 'di ko pinoproblema and here I am in this fucking situation with another man na 'di ko nga putanginang gusto!!

At first, whenever his girlfriend rolls her eyes at iniirap ako, nagpapasensiya ako. Nagpapakumbaba. Naiintindihan ko pero ngayon? If you stare at me, I will stare back at you. Be bitch with me, I'll double it back to you. Let us see who's bitchier than us. Maldita ka? Mas maldita ako sa'yo. Do not mistake my sweetness and kindness with other people as weakness. It doesn't mean to say na hinahayaan ko ang mga kaibigan kong magkulitan kami and them cursing me means I am easy to rattle and intimidate, I am not. I also have psychotic tendencies.

If as early as now, I am seeing these red flags with him, does he really think there's a chance of me liking him and switching this irritation with love? Fuck no.

This is not a situation where the more you hate, the more you love. This is a situation where the more you hate, the more I want to punch and slap situation kasi ang kulit niya. Sa sobrang kakulitan niya pinapahamak niya ako sa lahat. His woman is hating on me and probably talking about it to other people, which is making these people who hate on me and curious about me.

If you like someone, you would want to protect them. At this point pakiramdam ko, he's just doing this because he wanted a reaction from his girlfriend. Tangina. At ako pa ang nakita. Ako pa ginagamit.

Kung ang lalaki ba ang lapit ng lapit, bakit kasalanan pa rin yun ng babae? Bobo ka pala eh. Bigyan mo ng attitude ang jowa mo, 'di ako.  Yung boyfriend mo sobrang fuckboy. Fuckboy Pro Max yata ang putangina.

Motto nung lalaki yun siguro, never let your girlfriend stop you from finding your wife. Bwiset. Ugh. Nagawa ko pang magjoke kahit na inis na inis na ako. 

Umiiwas na nga ako diba? Tangina, ako pa umiiwas sa sitwasyon na'to na para bang ako ang may kasalanan.  I am so trying my best to be the most red flag too whenever he's around. I do weird things. Curse out loud. I don't fucking care. If I can just go ahead and be the worst woman he has ever heard or seen, I am okay with that. Ma turn off kang putangina ka. Tigilan mo lang ako.

If my presence makes him feel happy, then his presence is a headache for me because it makes me anxious. He makes me so uncomfortable that I almost cannot take it.  I've never felt so much irritation with a man. If he means well, I don't feel well. I feel like dying, crying, and feeling helpless.

Mabait siya sa akin, but the situation is so fucked up. I would rather he not be kind to me. I may be in need of kindness, but it's not from him.

And his woman, please, lang. If I wanted to fuck your man, I would have done it from the start. I don't even fucking know you people and you are just giving me some fucking attitude!

Ano kayang pumasok sa isipan niya 'no?

Because of his bullshitness, the more I am so done with men this year. I am being consumed by this irritation. Alam kong nadadamay ang ibang tao, but God, please lang naman, ilayo mo po ako sa mga taong selfish at ipinapahamak ako.

This situation is causing me anxiety. Gusto kong magsumbong sa kahit na sino. If I had a man, I would have already told him about this as well. Ipagtanggol mo nga ako baby, binibwiset ako ng lalaking yun oh. Hindi yata nakakaramdam na wala akong gusto sa kaniya. Halikan kaya kita sa harap niya para malaman niyang ikaw ang mahal ko, but I don't have any man who would protect me from this situation and as always I have to act like it doesn't make me feel anxious. That this situation does not disgust me to the core, but it does. Ugh! Situations like these... I wish I have a man who can protect me at bakuran ako sa ibang lalaki.

Ewan ko ba sa kaniya lang rin ako ganito kainis. Feel ko, 'di pa yata yun nahihindian ng babae eh. Sige, ako yung first time putangina siya or maybe, is he reading my expression and reaction with him wrong? Baka I am frowning tapos akala niya nagseselos ako. Ngiii.

And what if he means well? Let's give a benefit of the doubt that he means well, then he needs to heal. Sa daming bad things na naobserve ko sa kaniya ewan ko na lang.

He's a gaslighter. Putanginang 'yan. He gaslight and lie too much. The good thing about him is that he's good with people, but aanuhin mo naman yung taong magaling sa mga tao kung harap-harapan kang ginagago? The disrespect is so loud that even without words you can hear it from him.

But it makes me anxious. This situation is making me anxious and I hate it. Having a crush on me is okay, BWAHAHAHA, pero 'wag mo naman akong ipahamak. If you have a good intention to me and if you mean well, pwede bang protektahan mo naman ako? Hindi ganito. Sige nga kung ikaw nasa lugar ko, paano ako magkakagusto sayo? 

Imagine diba? Ni wala akong problema sa taong totoong gusto ko, nagkakaproblema ako sa ibang tao na dapat hindi ko pinoproblema but their action is spiking my anxiety. If Jin is careful with his interactions with me, pero siya... he only thinks about himself.

I think he looks down on me and I understand. Kasi gusto ko nga si Jin, but that does not mean I would like just any man who would come my way. Hindi ganoon 'to. If you are good with your intentions or kahit na sino namang lalaki, then talk to me. Make it clear to me you want me. Not just because I dress sexily or I wear make up. Make it clear you want me and...please... move slowly with me. Be gentle with me. One step at a time lang. Baby steps lang. Not this aggressive shit because it makes me anxious and please... respeto naman oh.