One-shot Compilations

Thankful

Since it is Thanksgiving. (Tapos na pala, di ko na post lol) I think I need to thank people for the things I got this year, even if I would not be able to tell this to them in person, like ang weird ko if ever. Ahahaha. But I really do wanna thank them. I really really do. Oh, well.

First, I would like to thank any divinity above for all the blessings that have come my way. From the condo, the food, and the superficial and material things that I was able to afford. For giving me strength and encouragement to continue when I wanted to give up.

Second, wala. Deleted

Next is my sister, whom I both hate and love. Na naiinis ako sa pagka-nagger. Na kung kasal siguro kami matagal ko ng dinivorce to kasi grabe yung bibig. I may not say this to her directly, but thank you for being a rich tita. BWAHAHAHA. Kahit pasaway ako. Kahit na hindi ko gets minsan kung bakit ang arte-arte ng mga preferences mo sa mga bagay at ang OC mo. Kahit naiinis na ako sa bunganga mo. Even though I get sad because of you, I love you. I will always be thanking you about all the things you've done for the family. For being the proxy eldest daughter and taking care of our parents, because I am not able to do it myself and you know... I won't. Even if my actions may indicate otherwise, I am thankful. Kahit na tayo lang yung magkapatid na hindi nag-uusap about sa mga feelings natin kasi hindi tayo sanay and we only talk about anything else than our feelings. Lol. I may feel cringe when she tries to hug me because I hate hugging her kasi ang weird sa pakiramdam ko, but at the same time binibiro ko siyang i-hug or ikiss. Lol.  She is someone I am extremely grateful to. Even if sometimes rin sumosobra na siya at nadedepress ako. If I were to choose a sister, I would still choose her minus the nagging. Please lang. Lord talaga.

Then kay Jack, kahit nga once a year lang kami mag-usap at lasing pa siya, thanks for making sure and checking on me if I am still alive and breathing. I am still alive. Don't worry. Malulungkot lang 'to, but I'll get by.

Next is mga tao sa office na pinagtatrabahuan ko.

I am thankful for my pregnant friend, Cha. She and I... kahit siguro ilang buwan kaming hindi mag-usap okay lang friends pa rin kami. No pressure. Thanks for her sa pakikinig and all. Siya lang yata yung tao sa prod na nakakausap ko even about sa family ko. I hope she is always happy and I wish her the best.

Eto, si Richie. Lol. Yung kaibigan ni Jin sa same department. Ano, alam kong naiinconvenience ka na naman ni Jin sa kaputanginahan at kaartehan namin sa buhay namin. Alam kong alam mo matagal na. Kahit na ang torpe nga kaibigan mo... thanks sa pagsama sa kaniya noon. BWAHAHA. I appreciate you being friends with Jin and not judging us? Like I don't know if you even understand us. I think you just knew things from both Jin and my perspective, which you knew and we didn't know. I am unsure. That's just how I feel. And I just wanted you to know that no matter what happens between Jin and me, I will never get angry with you. Kapag nga gusto kong bumitaw kay Jin, ikaw talaga minsan naaalala ko dahil ewan ko nadadamay ka sa effort ni Jin. Lol. I swear. I am thankful for you too. Nahihiya lang ako minsan. Pero kasi Richie, napapagod rin naman ako sa ganito. There's something about your friend, but... but... I think not now. I think our willingness, maturity level, and morals are not at par. Alam mo ba, kahit ganiyan yan si Jin, I noticed he has this sense of social morality. What society deems as correct and just are those things that he would follow rather than following his heart. I am the complete opposite. I would rather get criticized for my actions, but it doesn't matter to me as long as I am happy. It is me against society. That's how we approach our situation. Sa kaniya kasi what the usually thing that is right is right, sa akin it is right if it makes you happy. And that's what is not making the connection work and our push and pull game. I think..  I know ang dami ng nangyari sa koneksyon nato.  We can't continue like this forever. No one will be happy.  And also.. One day, I asked myself: is this really the love I deserve for myself? I believe you are aware of the answer... Hindi. This is not the love I deserve, but still... thank you for being his friend. And if ever, it's not me and Jin, and if I would be in a relationship with someone else, just to let you know that I never played your friend, it was true...at some point Richie.

Next is Choco. I appreciate you making my friend happy and also being a good friend to me. Wala lang. Kahit pakiramdam ko most of the time, tuwang-tuwa ka sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung nakakatawa ba ako o ano. Well, I hope you and Cha live happily ever after. I will always pray for that.

Next is yung super hot manager nina Jin and Richie na naging manager ko noon— si OMH. Lol. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart kahit na nahihiya po talaga ako sayo. Ayaw ko talagang magpa feeling close pero ang gwapo mo po kasi OM pero mali to. BWAHAHA. I really appreciate you checking up on me a few months ago. Like, if I had an ideal husband, I think it would be you. Bwahahaha. Ang landi. Pero totoo talaga. I swear to God, your way of showing care is through words of affirmations. I feel so supported,  like someone has my back. I will always be grateful for those times. You have no idea how you saved me. That's why... within me parang ang laki ng utang na loob ko sa'yo and I know that's not how you want it to be, but I am just... just so thankful for lifting up my spirits a few months ago noong OM pa po kita. I swear nasa listahan ka po ng mga good people na susuportahan ko. I promise to God that I will always remember that. It maybe nothing to you and you probably don't remember what I was pertaining about but I swear to God po, I am forever thankful. I was happy with your promotion and I swear to God, I have promised myself to be your number one fan. Kung ipagchecheer kita sa office gagawin ko talaga para sa'yo. I can't express how thankful I am to you. Just those little things.. I know wala lang yun sayo but those words of affirmation saved me. You are someone I look up to a lot. I know I am so shy to tell this in person but this is how I feel. I would never have the guts to say this to you in person and I may pretend that I don't see you sometimes but just so you know... I am just shy at ayaw ko pong baka pakiramdam niyo nagfefeeling close ako sa'yo. I really do appreciate you and I will always be cheering for you.

Si OMJ. Lol. Nahihiya ako sa kaniya. I think nahassle ko na siya enough for the past months. BWAHAHAHA. Tapos, nasestress talaga ako kapag kinakausap siya ni Jin kasi pakiramdam ko ayaw niyang magpagulo pero nagugulo siya sa kadaldalan ni Jin sa buhay niya. I am also grateful to him. Words of affirmation guy too. Lmao. Yung mga life quotes na sinasabi niya sa akin and motivational things... I really appreciate it talaga. For checking up on me. For providing me those options and I'm sorry for being difficult at sakit sa ulo and thank you for believing in me and always checking up on me. I just can't express it enough. Kahit alam kong may attitude ako and all. Lol. I really appreciate him... sobra. I will always remember his words and kindness to me too.

Si OMB, ayun diiin, isa sa pinakamabait na OM na nakilala ko talaga. I have this secret... that one incident a few months ago. I think he saw me when I was not comfortable with someone. He made me feel comfortable by sitting beside the person who made me feel uncomfortable, and I will always remember that.

Tapos si... TL Z, I wanna thank her too for helping me and talking to me. I would always look up to her as a TL. Kung si OMH yung sa OM ko, I look up to TL Z as a TL. And I appreciate the knowledge she provided me and I will also not forget that.

Sino pa ba? Yung mga kateam ko na kinakausap ako. Yung pinakamatangkad na babae sa team namin. I just want her to know that i appreciate her really. For all the things she did and she befriended me. Sa paglalakad-lakad namin sa likod. I am not mad at her. Just our other bitches teammates. Bwahahaha. Not her though. I am happy for her. Sa lahat ng kateam namin, isa siya sa mga hindi nagsaside comment sa akin. Isama na rin yung basketball player na friend namin na palaging nag-aaya uminom. Dahil sa kaniya, may yumakap sa akin na artista sa birthday niya para na rin akong nagbirthday. Kung alam ko lang pala na may artista siyang kaibigan matagal na akong nakipagclose sa kaniya at sumama uminom. BWAHAHAHA. Joke lang pero kumusta na kaya yung friend niya? 

The support who supported us, I thank him too for being easy to talk with at magkajive kaming dalawa — Shuli. Lol. True name. Sana maging TL na siya. Lol. Ayun lang.

There's minor ones but napapagod na akong matype. That's all the people I wanna thank this year and all of them... I wish to have a great life and I promise this... I will forever remember your kindness to me. I may not be able to give back immediately right now... but when the times  comes.... I will.