JOYCE POV
Three days ago,three days pass by,three days of me pretending we are alright but my head is just full of walang kwentang bagay. Tang Ina!!Ang kasalanan ko kay Lord hindi na nababawasan nadadagdagan pa. So what now?I deserve to be in hell already? Oh maybe I should leave Johann and be happy.
Be happy. Really?Without him?How can I?
"Ate Joyce..nakikinig ka ba?"
Hila hila ni Kamille ang damit ko. Para na talaga akong lutaw sa hangin dahil nakakalimutan ko nang kaharap ko ang mga bata.
"Uo sige..bibilhan kita ng cake sa birthday mo..okay?"
napatalon ang bata at napayakap aa akin.
"nandito kahapon ang guapong kuya...alam mo ate Joyce sabi niya cute ka daw..."
"Hoy Kamille tigilan mo na nga si Ate Joyce, halika dito at mangangaroling na tayo."
Napangiti nalang ako. I feel like my soul is separated from my body. Like I'm living like a zombie. My thoughts are filled with anything to do with Johann and for the first time in my life I don't like myself.
Nagpaalam na ako sa kanila bago umalis. Mag gagabi na at parang wala akong ganang umuwi ng bahay. But do I have a choice?
I saw a pink sport car in my gate. Nagtaka ako at dali daling lumapit. The window is tinted at hindi ko nakikita ang tao sa loob. I knocked.
Dahan dahang bumaba ang bintana.
No way! The Gail!
"finally! you're here.."
Her smiles widens. Na para bang ang saya niyang nakita ako. Bumaba siya. Napatulala ako, naghintay na humarap kami. She kissed me on my checks and give me a brief hug.
"Are you okay?hindi ba ako welcome?"
sabi pa niya.
Hindi.
Nais kong sabihin.
"Hi...nagulat ako napadaan ka."
"oh yeah..without notice..Actually Tito Frank sent me.."
As I heard Tito Frank name my thoughts gone crazy. What now?
"are you okay Joyce?"
she tell me again. I shook my head and give her a fake smile.
"what about your Tito Frank?"
Ngumisi siya. Putting her hand on my shoulder.
"he want me to talk to you..uhmm..about Johann.."
Napalunok ako ng laway. Johann again? Gusto kong tumalikod at iwan siya pero napapatigil ako ng pawang mapanghusga niyang mga mata.
"I'm sorry..I didn't mean something bad it just Tito is kind of a man I don't want to oppose with. Are you sure you want me to say it here?"
Tumango nalang ako habang tinitiim ang kulo ng dugo ko.
"He wants you to stay away from Johann..break up with him and tell him you two are impossible to be together...I know its hard but think about it Joyce its for Johann own gain..You should not be selfish, think about him.."
para akong sasabog. Yong gusto kong hablutin ang buhok niya at itali sa leeg nya. Nakakabuwesit ang mga salita niya. Nakakawalan ng gana harapin.
"Don't tell me what to do..."
sabi ko. Biglang tumaas ang kilay niya.
"really?dont be too confident about what you two have..sooner he will left you. I'm giving you a favor to leave first before he does. You must thanking me Joyce. "
"favor?Keep it. Only me and Johann can decide about that. So please kindly tell your Tito Frank to leave us alone. So now if you'll excuse me."
hindi na ako tumingin pa ulit sa kanya. Dali dali akong pumasok sa bahay at sinara at pinto. I heard her saying something but I didn't give a damn to listen. Did she think I didn't my fault? Pathetic.
No way. I think I'm pathetic.
Parang sasabog ang utak ko. Paulit ulit na sumasagi sa isip ko ang mga sinasabi niya. That Gail really affects me a lot. Nagtataka lang ako kung bakit ang unang sinabi ng Daddy niya he wont force to leave Johann and now all of the sudden he decide to tell me what to do?Anu to?baliw baliwan?
Napahiga ako sa kama, facing off. Digging my face on my pillow before I shout as loud as I could. In a moment I didn't realize I was already crying.
Damn it!!!I need to stop this.
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Romance(Ongoing Editing) We choose the love we think you deserve even it takes us to sin. What would you risk to fight against forbidden love? Would you choose your faith or would you follow your heart? Join Joyce and Johann in their one of a kind love st...
