I Miss You // Luke Hemmings | ✔️

~Eleven~

{Two Weeks Later}

•Mikey's POV•
I've been watching Khy sink back down into a deep, dark depression since Luke's Birthday. That night did something to her and I'm worried for her.

I'm scared that she'll pick up the blade again. I want to protect her, help her but she's becoming so distant from me. It's scaring me.

I come in most days to find her drunk, then I spend the nights holding her hair back, while she vomits the days alcohol down the toilet. It hurts so much to watch her this way. It's killing me but I don't need her to know that.

I walk in one morning to find her asleep on the sofa, Game of Thrones DVD on TV and a bottle of Vodka empty on the floor.

I scoop her up and carry her to bed. I place her down and tuck her up, I lie down beside her and hold her. Just hold her, I wish I could make it all better but I know as soon as she wakes up it'll just be a day similar to the rest.

When she starts to stir against my chest, I stroke her hair soothingly and smile. "Morning beautiful. How's the head? You might need some painkillers, huh?" I kiss her forehead.

Khy opens her eyes and blinks at me a few times. She nods and places her hand on her head. I pass her the painkillers I know she keeps in her draw. I also give her the glass of water that's sitting on a table next to her bed.

I leave her to get dressed while I go into the bathroom and check to see if she has acquired anymore blades. I don't find any which relieves me slightly.

I find her looking around confused when I go back in "what's up?" I ask as I wrap my arms around her. She barely acknowledges me "what am I doing today?" She asks quietly, almost inaudible. "We can watch some tv or go out? Visit the boys?" I say softly as I kiss her cheek.

She looks worried "don't wanna go out Mikey" she frowns at me. I kiss her gently "then we don't have to. Why don't I see if the boys want to come over here?" I offer. She nods.

I send the boys a text and they say they'll be over in about half an hour.

I'm actually considering taking Khy to her therapist today, she's worrying me. She just seems so distant and like she doesn't even understand this world anymore. It's like she's almost forgot who's here to support her and who cares for her. She's just shutting everything out.

***

Later when Ash and Cal arrive, I immediately sense Ash's concern for her. She was just sat staring at the tv when they came in, not watching it, just staring straight into it.

She didn't even acknowledge the boys arriving until Cal sat down beside her and gave her a hug. Even then she just managed a small smile, not the usual brave face she puts on when Cal's around.

I exchanged a sad look with Calum as he came to stand near me "I don't know what to do anymore guys. I'm helpless, I want to make her better but I don't know if I can repair her anymore" some tears escape down my face.

Ash puts his hand on my back and give it a gentle rub "I know mate, I don't think it's up to us to repair her though. I think she needs help". I nod, I know what he's saying. Cal looks between us sadly "come here CalPal" I say as I rest my hand on his shoulder.

"She'll be okay, won't she?" he asks. To tell the truth I don't know if she'll ever be okay but because it's Cal I told a lie. "Yes eventually" I fake a smile. Ash nods, I know he understands.

Later I got on the phone to a Bereavement Counsellor. They could fit her in later today. It's pretty much the last straw, I don't know what we'll do if it doesn't work. The only thing I know is I'll never leave her alone, not ever.

***

Later it was time to go to Khy's appointment but I was having trouble getting her out the house. She was screaming, crying, kicking and slapping at me and the boys as we tried to get her in my car.

I received various kicks to the nuts by now. Cal had been slapped across the face and Ash had been kicked in the leg. We were all about deaf.

The guys had her by her arms and were trying to drag her out of the house. She wouldn't move and just kept kicking out and screaming. It was killing me to see her so upset, I couldn't take it anymore.

I sunk down to my knees, tears poured down my face. I wrapped my arms around her lower leg and looked up at her. "Khy, please don't do this. Please just come with us, please baby. It's killing me this is, it's killing me! I love you Khy so please just don't hurt me anymore" I plead her.

Ash helped me up to my feet and I leaned on him afraid if I let go, I would just sink back down.

I watched as Khy calmed and her tears just fell silently, no screaming. I held my hand out to her "please babe" I ask in a soft voice tone. She puts her hand in mine.

Eventually she lets me lead her out and put her in the passenger seat of my car. I get in the drivers side and set off. We might be a bit late but my girlfriend was kinda bordering on psycho not too long ago.

We make it a bit late to the appointment but I managed to get Khy out the car with a small bit of persuasion.