I Miss You // Luke Hemmings | ✔️

~Fourteen~

•Khy's POV•

I woke alone in bed for the third morning since Mikey left, Ash had been sleeping on the sofa downstairs so he could look after me, day and night.

As if on que, the curly haired boy came bouncing in with a cup of tea for me. He smiled and set it on the table for me, he smiled and sat on my bed.

"Okay?" Ash asked. I nodded "you're too lively for the mornings" I grumble sleepily. He laughs "get used to it" he teases.

"Oh I just remembered I gotta go out with the family in a few days, you're really welcome to join if you want? Mum said it would be fine, also the kids would love it. Just don't want to leave you on your own" he smiles.

"I'll just stay here I'll be fine" I tell him. "Sure?" I nod "just go out with your family, I wouldn't want to feel awkward. I'll be fine here" I smile. He nods "okay but if you change your mind just call me and I'd come to get you". I nod.

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It's now the day where Ash is going out which means I'll be alone most of the evening.

"You'll be okay? You sure?" Ash asks as he's about to leave my house. "Yes just go enjoy yourself". "Call me if there's any problems" he tells me. I hug him "go now, I know what your Mum is like if you're late" Ash laughs and waves as he leaves. I wave back and shut the door.

I decide to watch some tv and order a pizza. The pizza came quickly and I had stuck a DVD on. I felt alright for a while. Then the boredom set in and soon after I started feeling sad.

I debated texting Ash or maybe ringing Cal just for someone to talk to but the chances of Mikey being with Cal were high and I didn't want to speak to Mikey for now. They were probably in a club or getting ready to go out anyway.

I took myself upstairs and went in the bathroom. I stripped down and got in the shower. This time I had no motivation to stop me, I pick up the blade and feel the relief it brought as the small trickle of blood ran into the plug hole. Where was Mikey to stop me now? He had basically broke up with me, so it's his fault that I've done this. I've been provoked.

I continued to just drag the blade over my wrists and upper legs. I got out and put my dressing down on. I realised what I'd done and collapsed on the floor in a crying mess. That's how Ash found me hours later...

He picked me off the floor gently, careful not to hurt my fresh wounds. He took me to my room and sat me on my bed "Khy, what happened? Why didn't you call me?" He asks as he gets the first aid kit out the bathroom.

I shrug "I got bored and felt sad so it just seemed right, I didn't want to disturb you" I tell him. He frowns sadly at me as he puts some plasters on my wrists. "That stupid boy made you do this" I hear him mutter under his breath. I know who he's talking about, he's right.

"I can't really dress the ones on your legs, will they be okay?" he asks. I nod "just leave them, I always do". He nods.

"Thank you" I say quietly. He chuckles "for what? Making sure you don't bleed to death?" He sounds kinda sad. "No, for not getting angry at me for doing it". His expression softens "nobody can get angry at you for this. You can't help the sudden urges you have, and remember I've been through it. I know how hard it is to give up but I managed".

I smile, I had forgot that Ash once did the same as me, you'd never think it now. He smiles back "Mikey won't find out about this". I nod "thanks Ash" I hug him and he holds me tightly "what are we gonna do with you?" He teases. I smirk and shrug. He laughs.

"Come on let's get you into bed now" he says. He goes out the room to let me properly get changed instead of just sitting in a dressing gown. When he comes back in I'm in bed just looking at him.

He sits on my bed "night Khy, I'll be down on the sofa again if you need me" he smiles. He hugs me then let's me go. "Night" I whisper as he leaves and turns the light off.