I Miss You // Luke Hemmings | ✔️

~Thirteen~

When Ash walked through the front door I couldn't stop myself from throwing myself into his arms. He held me close for a minute "you'll be okay" he tells me softly "you're not alone". I look at him and let a small smile across my lips, Ash knows what to say when I need it.

"What do you want to do then Khy?" Ash asks. I shrug. "Can we watch Game of Thrones?" I ask. He nods and goes to sort out the DVD player to get it ready. I get us some drinks of Coke and bring them through.

We sit on the sofa watching Season 3 of GoT which I've watched a million times but it always seems to be my favourite. Ash occasionally catches my eyes and just gives me a small smile, I know that's his way of checking I'm okay. I smile back or at least try to.

"So..." He started to say something. I look at him "so what?"

Ash clears his throat and looks around the room "you haven't thought about cutting anymore have you?" Where did that come from? Like seriously, was there any need?

With it being Ash all the truth just somehow falls out, I can lie to Cal, I can lie to Mikey if he doesn't see through the front I put on to hide my feelings... But Ash, it's impossible to lie to him, I just can't!

"I nearly did last night" I look at my hands "but I stopped myself not because I wanted to but because I don't really know to be honest... I just stopped" I watch as Ash's expression becomes worried and he just nods slowly.

"At least you stopped yourself, maybe that's a sign you're getting stronger?" He smiles. Why does he always try to make a positive out of things? I shake my head "no it was just coz I was too tired to even bother and just went to bed instead. I would've done it otherwise, I'm sorry you have to hear that but it's true" I frown.

Ash pulls me into him and hugs me "we'll help you out of this Khy, I promise. Mikey and Cal will get back and we'll get you better" he tells me softly. I just nod, I just fear that I won't be able to last till Mikey gets back.

Suddenly my phone started to ring, I smiled when I saw it was Mikey.

"Hey Mikey"

"Hi, you okay?"

"You've left me to go to Perth, do you think I'm okay?"

"What was I supposed to do just stay and argue with you? I needed a break Khy. That's why I wanted to tell you something..."

"What?"

"I think we should go on a break, we're not working well right now. Maybe we just need a break from each other?"

"I don't know Mikey"

"I think it's best. I'll see you when I get back"

I start to cry and I'm about to hang up when Ash quickly grabs my phone "hey Mikey" Ash takes my phone away so I'm not in earshot and walks into the kitchen.

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•Ash's POV•

"Hey Ash, I'm guessing you're looking after her right now?"

"Yeah, she's lonely mate. She's lonely because apparently someone who promised her she would never be alone has fucked off to Perth!"

I heard him sigh at the end of the phone.

"I didn't have much choice, I just had to get away"

"What did you say to her? She's crying in there now"

"I told her that we should go on a break because it's for the best. We're not working well as a couple right now"

"Are you bloody insane Mikey? The most fragile thing you've ever seen in your life needs you, what do you do you fuck off to Perth... Oh and as if she's not already hurting enough you've basically just broke up with her! Don't you see what you're doing? It'll make her worse"

"I don't mean to hurt her but she crumpled me the other night. I was hurt real bad Ash, you don't know the things she said. It hurts when that comes from your girlfriend, I don't know what to do anymore"

"Well just to let you know she's probably hiding some blades somewhere, coz she just admitted to me that she almost cut last night. She stopped herself, probably for your sake and you can't even bother to bloody be here for her!"

"What do you expect me to do? If I come back now we'll just go back to fighting and it's gonna hurt us both more"

"Just give you both some space. You stay in Perth for a few weeks like you planned and we'll see what the situation is when you come back"

"Look after her Ash, I do care. I love her for god sake but she hurt me so much"

"I know. I'll look after her, not for your sake, for her's. She doesn't deserve being left the way you did last night"

"Tell her I'm sorry"

"Bye"

"Bye"

I put the phone down and shake my head. That boy has cotton wool for a brain I swear. He's really made me angry, just leaving when Khy clearly needs him, if they had problems he could've talked to Cal and I about it, not just go away coz he felt like it.