dear diary ✧ phan

September 8th, 2018

Dear Diary,

We've finally got our new house sorted. It's so nice!! It's very Dan and Phil, as people may say. It's still close to our work so it's meant that we can keep our jobs, which is always a bonus. We're a proper happy little family now, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

I've been thinking about this diary. I'm thinking its time I wrote my last entry. I'm struggling to find time to update this as regularly as I'd like, so I think it's time I called it a day. I'd rather give it a proper ending than constantly leave cliffhangers, wondering what happened next.

Meeting Phil has changed my life for the better. We've had ups and downs, but we've always come out so much stronger. I wouldn't change a single thing about my life, or my family. It's everything I could've ever hoped for. Growing up with no friends, an unsupportive family and a terrible excuse of a first job has not knocked me down and I'm a much stronger, happier person than I ever thought possible.

In general, ever since I met Phil, my life has changed completely. I've gone from being a nobody who was struggling to keep themselves alive, to now having my own beautiful family with someone I love and would die for. If someone had told me five years ago when I was on the verge of being thrown out of the house and not making an income, that I would one day meet someone who would turn my life around, I'd have laughed in their face. But now, it's fucking amazing.

Becoming a parent has been one of the most challenging yet life-changing experiences I've ever had. Growing up, the idea of having to take full responsibility of another human's life alongside my own was something that terrified me. But now, I wouldn't change it for the world. I've learned a lot about myself and I've become a much better person as an outcome of it. I'm watching our little boy grow up more and more as each day passes and it makes me so incredibly proud, not only of him and Phil, but also myself. I've proven to myself that things can get better and that I can change things in my life just like that. I'm so, so much happier now and it's a feeling I've never felt before. I never want it to go away.

Keeping this diary has been fun, but this is it I guess. It's been a wild ride, and I'm so glad I've managed to keep everything stored inside this little book. Maybe I'll find it one day and start again. Now I've got so many memories to look back on and remind myself of why I've become the person I am. I'm sure it'll make an interesting read. And who knows? Maybe one day I'll write in this again..

Until then,

Signing out for the last time,

Dan, Phil and Dil :) x