When dreams become nightmares
When fear demons
Invade every atom
Of your being
You have the most
Miserable fear
The trigger to anxiety
What if I relapse?
What if this rebirth is temporary?
What if I get so exhausted again
I become bedridden
The constant
Cluster fuck of thoughts
The mishugas
Round and round
Can't stop the dreams
I wish I could fight it
Like I used to
Turn nightmares
Into battlegrounds
Instead I am privy
To miserable fear
ME
Anxiety
Depression
Exhaustion
Tiredness
What if it returns
With a vengeance
What will I do then?
I have cried and cried
I beg my spiritual guides
For help
I can't do this alone
Prayers help tons
But how do I get rid of this
Miserable fear
How do I stop the thoughts
That invade my psyche
At night
How do I protect myself spiritually?
There has to be a way to fight back
Please help me find it
I need to not be afraid of the future
Or the present
For the past is gone
Never to return
And logic tells me
I am on the right path
However the
Miserable fear
Has me in its grip
Every time I go to sleep
Please make it stop
I am strong
But I need guidance
I need help
I need a special kind of counselor
Pray tell
How do I let go?
How do I delete
This evil
From my mind
I will fight
But I cannot do it alone
Baruch Hashem
Angels up high
Spirit guides
Who walk with me
Eternal
Exorcize this
Miserable fear
From my heart
Body
Mind
And
Soul
Amen
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Rebirth (Book 4)
PoetryThis book starts where Survivor left off only from a much more changed stand point and learning and living one day at a time. That doesn't, however, mean that I am cured of ME or Myalgic Encephalomyelitis; which I was diagnosed with in September of...
