Hope

But Have You Ever?

WARNING:THIS PORM CONTAINS THE THOUGHT OF SELF-HARM,HEARTBREAKS,AND EATING DISORDER STANZAS.

IF THIS STUFF TRIGGERS, IT IS HIGHLY SUGGEST YOU DON'T READ.

I would like to start off nice , But I'm gonna start off bumpy;this world ain't all filled with happiness. 

Have you ever pictured when you were a kid? That all those things that were said to you killed? 

It didn't really used to bother you back then, but now like a pain in the head until. 

Have you ever noticed how the day turns to dawn , the sun has to come down on such a perfect day, when there's no stars in the sky to count the memories within',you can't feel nor' think so you cry until. 

Have you ever just stared in the reflection on the mirror,the exact replica of a shape you would love to distinquish. 

That shape isn't going anywhere at the moment,it makes you , it makes every second you live. 

Have you ever just sat and just stared at your food? The chills run through your spine when it digests , dosn't decline?You feel like the calorie intake is crazy, you wanna find a way to get rid of those babies. 

Have you ever needed to release the stress of the day? The horrible , disasterous memories of today? You escaped for some seconds later becoming an addiction , the sharp edge caught you before you paid attention. 

Have you ever climbed so high you reached of top of the world? You strived until the heat was on the tip of your fingers? The wind try to blow the good warmth of the day; the day is telling you that it's gonna end ;it just portray.  

Have you ever had a conversation with such a sweet angel? An angel that could steal your heart from all of the rangers? When that beauty leaves you feel like you are in danger;hoping that this feeling don't get stolen't by a strangler. 

Have you ever felt so in love that sex was tangling in anger? The rough feels of hormones jumping at you forever. That lover couldn't be there because something occured ; The future lovey messages ended with words "Okay "sure" ". 

Have you ever felt like pressure was tilted on your shoulder? The rough , jurrasic force that makes it seen like disaster , your head hurts then your hands shake then your whole body aches , from the one thought that blew you off like water rushing down a lake. 

Have you ever saw someone you knew in so much pain? You felt the horror in their soul , their heart and their brain? Every single crack that happened just happened to you, then you know damn well that there's always something new. 

Have you ever felt that life was gonna drop any second now? You feel half alive and then you drop your head down , no more looking up at the birds flying from the clouds , the only thing you saw was the fog blocking the revolution towers. 

Have you ever seen the blood drip from an object or heart , the one memory that you will never forget? The only think keeping you alive was always that, or the relief you felt for just a second when you stood on top of the house mat. 

Have you ever kicked the bridges off the weakest lake , cause it couldn't flow in a way that would protect the shore , so the bridge went bye-bye although it was by accident , and now even though it was reluctant you have to pay the price.

I know life ain't easy but you can always do it. 

You are not the only one alone in the game. 

I promise you that everything will be just okay. 

Just remember to keep trying if that day ain't today.

Love you all. Stay Strong.