Poems, Prose, Thoughts

A Distant Lullaby

There was a vibration under my pillow
And I know without opening my eyes
It was you

Who else would it be?
I answered my phone then I heard your voice

"I'm leaving soon" you said
I responded with a soft "hmm"
You repeated yourself again,
"love, I am leaving soon"
I know.
Then I did not say a word again but a simple "hmm"

"are you going to be alright?" you asked
Of course I'll be
But instead I responded with a soft "yeah"

"This might be the last call I can make before I leave, I am leaving soon" you said in a much stronger yet softest tone
"it's three in the morning" I whispered
You did not answer anymore

Seconds, minutes, hours passed
I don't know
All I know is you're on the other line
I can hear you telling me everything you do, "I'm packing my shoes, I'm looking for my brush, I'm folding my last minute additional clothes"
I can imagine you doing those

Then you spoke, "are you still there or you've already succumbed to sleep?"
You asked with soft voice and forced chuckle
"I can't sleep" I answered my voice cracking in the end

"don't cry" was your immediate reply your voice it was full of panic
Then I started to sob
Shoulder rocking sob I had to put my hand on my mouth to suppress the sounds lucky I don't have a room mate.

"Don't cry, I won't be leaving anymore just stop crying I don't this" you said with frustrated voice
I know you don't want to leave but you have to I won't steal you from your dream life.
"No you have to go we will be alright we will talk when you reached your destination" I said

Then the line was off
I thought you ended the call
Then I heard a familiar tune the song I loved
You started singing your voice and your guitar they lull me to sleep like a distant lullaby
I was fighting a losing battle
The phone slipped from my hand
I still can hear you

Then you stopped.
After a couple of "hello love"
You might thought that I fell asleep then you whispered
"I love you so much"
It hurts.
Then you were silent maybe you were waiting for my response I don't have the courage to answer you
I don't trust my voice to answer you back

After a couple of minutes I was ready
"hello? I heard you" I whispered
I don't think you heard me then another voice came it's time for you to go
"hello? Hello? I love you ...." then the line was dead
...too"