Poems, Prose, Thoughts

Goodbye

No words can describe what I'm feeling right now

Hurt, depressed, sad, heartbroken, distressed
Those are not enough to describe this emotion I am feeling right now

Seven years
Is that enough to know you?
I don't think so but it's enough to make me feel like this when you left me

Seven years, four months and fifteen days that's the length of time I've known you

You came into my life without a sign, it was unexpected, it was a surprise.
I don't know what to feel when I first saw you
I was excited though and hugged you with all I have and love you with all my might.
You were aloof that late day
Maybe thinking who am I, why am I hugging you.
We tried to be comfortable with one another until later on you came and kissed my cheeks.

You did that out of instinct
And I returned it unthinkingly.

It was a dark Saturday when you came
You came home with my dad
I was reluctant at first to approach you

You, you looked out of place in our family
But still I accepted you immediately.

Mom doesn't want you to be around
I did my best to be always by your side always taking your side, I was your hero, you were my new friend I was always at your rescue, when you were being bullied
Tried to aquaint you with the others

You warmed our house with your small playful ways
Filled it with laughter with your silly games.

I hurt you some time
Then you look at me heartbroken
I know you thought I don't love you anymore but please don't forget I was always with you.

There are days I don't want you to be around,
I asked you to go away and stay out of my sight, out of my reach, you were stubborn, you chose to be by my side though I am mad at you, you'd walk closer and put your head on my lap.

I still remember your obsession in caffeine I was carrying a coffee in the room no olse noticed but you
I placed it under the table you were excited and headed to it but were not successful though
I laughed at you that day, so hard that the coffee in my hand was spilt
I tried to blame you for the coffee, but hey I don't cry over spilt coffee.

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One day you discovered another type of caffeine,
Coca-cola, we were drinking that beverage, then you called you said you want it too, I gave you a little amount of it I was thinking you won't drink it anyway
But you were full of surprises you drank it all away, starting that day you always know what was it and you won't relent when we said no, you'd crawl in our hearts using your eyes and we'll give you anyway.

There are days that you won't sleep
You'd cry and cry and we don't know why.
You just ate, you just peed, you just drank no one knows why you don't want to sleep you kept on bothering me then I tried to give you a milk.
You drank it all then you continued on bothering us, everyone was asleep that afternoon except for mom, you and I then you stared at me, I opened my arms to you I called you and told you I'd give you a hug then you walk in them and fell asleep
It was an embrace from me that you wanted.
I was overwhelmed by your actions because before that happen, I was mad at you and you want my forgiveness, my arms aroubd you, my love for you to be felt before you go to sleep.

There are times that we don't want to be around
We can't stand each other's guts
You were playful I was not
There were days I want to cuddle and you don't want
Those were not good memories but still a memory of you that's why I want it to recall.