Poems, Prose, Thoughts

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I was the winter during every summer

Cold, unshakeable, stoic

You were the summer during every season.

Happy, lively, Hot

I was stubborn

You were confused

I get it

I am now having the taste of my own medicine.

I never meant to act like that

It was my self defense from everyone

I hate the way you look at me

Like you never knew me

I hate that you're avoiding me

When it was I who avoided you first. 

We tried I know 

To stay neutral in the midst of very word every feeling known to each other

We tried to be friends 

We tried

We don't get everything we want 

Perhaps it includes the relationship we must have 

I need to give up

I will give up

Just don't give me that look again.

We are not suited for one another 

You are the famous one 

The one everyone wants, the humble one

I? I am the grumpy ugly one 

who hides behind a poker face so that no one would see how broken I am inside. 

You are the beauty I am the beast. 

I just hope that one day someone would free me from the beast inside me.

I hope we can start again 

I want to go back to the time when 

I wanted you as a friend 

And we can exchange quick smiles in the corridor