<Max's POV>
I drag the cool metal blade down my wrist five times.
1- for being in love with some one I can never have
2- for being in live with another male
3- for being a complete asshole to him
4- for not being good enough
5- for not hiding my feelings well
I do this every night. I punish myself for being in love with one of my roommates. Ross is the cutest person I have ever seen. I can't like him though. That's not how my parents raised me.
I look up at the mirror. I look terrible. My ginger hair is sticking up in different directions and there are tear stains in my cheeks. I look down at my bloody wrists. I clean up the bloody mess that I have created then put band aids on the fresh cuts.
I put on a long sleeved shirt and walk downstairs. I look down at the floor as I walk into the living room. I walk into something and fall in my butt. "Oh god. Max, are you okay? I'm so sorry I wasn't watching where I was going," the cute brunette says worriedly. I look up at him then weakly answer, "I-I'm fine."
I get up and sit on the couch. Ross sits next to me. We are so close. Our legs are just barely touching. I can't help it, I break down. I can't love my best friend. I just can't. He pulls me into a hug and holds me. I burry my head into the crook of his neck as I hug back.
"What's wrong?" he asks soothingly. I can't tell him the truth so I lie, "My mom is sick and I'm worried about her." He starts rubbing my back, calming me down a little bit. I squeeze my eyes shut and enjoy the peace. I press my lips to his neck ever so slightly. I feel him tense and I pull away from the hug. "Sorry," I mutter looking and my hands. "It's fine," I hear him say as he walks off.
I just ruined everything. God dammit it. All I do is ruin everything. I run back into the bathroom I was in minutes and get out the blade. I continue to drag the metal across my wrist over and over again. "Max. Are you okay?" I hear my other roommate, TimTim, say. I try to answer but my voice completely fails. I sit in the bathroom floor shaking. Tears blur my vision. All I see is red, and it's all around and on me. I start feeling dizzy. The room starts spinning. "Max! Answer me right now or else I'm forcing my way in!" my roommate yells. I try to stand up but my legs give way and I fall. I hear the door being kicked in then I see the blurry silhouette of Tim in front of me. "Ross. Call 911. Max is hurt!" is the last thing I hear before everything goes black.
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Saving Him {a Mithross fan fiction}
FanfictionTwo co-workers start falling for each other. One of them is suicidal. The other is happy and care free. Could they be any more different? Curse words will be used in this story. WARNING: SELF HARM IS INVOLVED IN THE STORY