On the Deaths of Alan Rickman and Bowie

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Close My Eyes.

Then, Closetland.

And of course Stardust was always there.

Not sure when it entered my mental world.

And yet, strangely,

I am not devastated.

Not sure why the lack of devastation.

Not that I want to be devastated..

but yeah, wondering

I'm at peace.

Perhaps it's age

the now-common death of close friends and older celebs

normal occurrences now.

Younger folks wonder

why the grief for Bowie:

they've never heard of him.

At the same time, other actors much older

are dying or have died

--90 year olds etc--

whom those now mourning Bowie

never heard of.

So yes a daily occurrence,

at my age.

At my age, death is numbing.

Once in a great while

there is this terrifying squeal

a strange overflow of grief

from my own mouth

from my own heart

which leaves me amazed.

And I think:

how strange this grief!

I didn't know this death

would devastate me so much.

I cried so much when Orson Welles died

I thought my heart would break.



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