Trepidation [completed]

THIRTEEN| monday morning

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I woke up to the sound of my phone buzzing over and over. I know it isn't time to wake up yet. My clock ready seven in the morning. I stopped the buzzing and looked at the screen. It hurt my eyes as I unlocked the device.

Zayn: have to talk to you. Come outside please. xxx

I grabbed my glasses and put them on. I put socks on my feet to hide my embarrassing lack of toes, and went outside my dorm with my crutches. I looked around the sunny daylight for Zayn. The sunlight this early in the morning is the brightest I've ever seen in my life. My arm was jerked over to the side of my dorm and I tumbled over.

"Louis," Zayn said. "Are you alright?"

"No," I frowned at him. "Ow."

"Oh," he frowned. "I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for being that way around Perrie."

"Okay," I said softly.

"Okay?" He's asked.

"Yes," I said.

"Do you still like me?" he asked.

"No," I muttered.

He frowned. "I'm sorry I made you feel that way."

I took a deep breath. "You like Perrie. I'm just a faggot."

It hurt as I said the sentences, but I couldn't hold anything else in. Zayn grabbed my shoulders gently and frowned.

"You are not a faggot, you're human. And you're right, I'm sorry but I'm not into liking boys. But I thought your little crush was cute," he smiled.

"Oh," I muttered.

"I really am sorry," said Zayn. "One day you'll find someone who you're going to love more than me, and you'll be happier than what I could've ever made you. Believe me."

I nodded minding my neck.

Zayn hugged me and I returned it. I lay my head on his shoulder and slightly squeezed his waist as I hugged him. We broke apart and he gave me a little smile and walked away. As I was walking back to my dorm, I thought about Danny. I do miss her a lot. She may not be the nicest person, but I do miss her. I didn't realize that I had zoned out and bumped into Harry. Just great, I have the worst luck in the world.

"Watch it Louis Tomlinson," Harry growled.

"Sorry," I mumbled.

"You aren't as tough as you think you are, Louis," said Harry.

I frowned. He's usually nicer than this nowadays.

"You were in this same situation at primary school in Manchester, weren't you? You bumped into Galaxy Merkel," said Harry with a smirk on his face.

"What?" I asked.

"You know exactly what I am talking about," growled Harry.

I stayed quiet. I remember what I caused, I remember every second of it. But how does Harry even know that? He didn't go to Manchester, he's from Cheshire, according to Liam. He didn't know anything about Galaxy! Galaxy Merkel never bothered me again. She was just as Danny said, not in our existence anymore. He stared at me for a few seconds. His facial expression was unreadable.