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Clarke POV*
"I'm fine." It's the phrase I repeat over and over again when people ask me about my physical, most likely my ability to walk, or my emotional state after the fallout with him.
I can't even look at him straight anymore he always has his hand around Lily. I can't bear to watch them show their little hugs by the campfire. But who cares now, I don't need anyone. I'm fine on my own. There's the phrase again "I'm fine."
It gets boring lying after a while. I still sit by the lake watching the water wash down the rocks. I don't care if I'm outside our territory. Why should I? I'm fine. I hate the phrase but I keep on saying it. So far, the camp is good we've built more cabins and expanded the wall. But, it can't ever be the same before the 3 months I hit my head. I stand staring at the water drip.
I pick up a rock and scream "DAMN IT." I feel hot streams running down my face. What happened? Why did this happen to me? I wipe my tears off. "I'm okay." I whisper to myself when I know I am not. I can do this.
I get up and I walk back into camp, still having a limp because my stupid brain and my nerve system takes months to heal. I see him I walk right by him sticking my head the other way while Lily clamps onto his arm like a lost puppy.
That's when I see him approach me. "Go away." I loudly state. "Don't you have a sloppy make out session to get back too?" I say with a aggravated look on my face as I turn to look at Bellamy.
"Clarke listen-"
" I don't want to talk about it."
"Fine." He looks at me. My heart aches just to go and scream I love you. But he's already loves someone else. I just need to learn to accept it. I remind myself one more time.
I'm fine
Even when I know I am no where close to being fine.
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I Can't Lose You (Bellarke)
FanfictionBased on the 100 (by Cass Morgan and the TV show) Disclamer : I do not own any of the characters and there will be Bellarke :) (The writing gets better as the book goes) Clarke gets her chance to go to "heaven", but it turns into a living hell.But...
