10. Spontaneous

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Two hours and twenty four minutes.

Two hours and twenty four minutes I sat in my room, crying and thinking where were we going to go from here. It seemed like for him this wasn't a big problem. It seemed like for him he just couldn't think of this from my point of view. And it scared me. If I was him, I would've cancelled that stupid vacation the minute if it came out as a problem. I wouldn't be so selfish to see that it wasn't hurting anybody. This was hurting me. So much. He was totally clueless. He didn't get it how wrong it felt for me to let him go on a vacation with another girl. I couldn't let him go.

He can't go.

I sat on my bed, legs crossed as I leaned my forehead on my hands. My head was aching from the crying and my stomach hurt from the heartbreak. I didn't know if Justin was still here or not, right now I just didn't care. I couldn't go through another argument. It was almost one in the morning and I had work tomorrow but still I couldn't sleep. How could I sleep when there was so much going on in my mind? 

I heard my door knob twisting slowly and as I looked up a small creature pushed through the narrow gap between the door and the wall. Esther ran over to my bed and sighing, I picked her up so she could lay on my bed. 

Another one of his tricks to get my mood better.

A few moments later a bigger creature also known as Justin stepped in and leaned against the door as he closed it. I didn't look at him a second longer. I bet he was trying to capture my gaze and do his puppy face. Not going to work.

Esther turned on her back as I scratched her tummy. A single tear dropped from my eye on the sheets, leaving a small mark.

"Ava, can we just talk about this?" Justin's voice was quiet and low.

Honestly I didn't want to talk about it. It was just so simple. If it made me upset he shouldn't go. That's the rules of a relationship. You don't just go on a vacation with another girl even if it was just work. It was that simple and I felt stupid because I was feeling like I was the bad guy here. And it shouldn't be like that.

I refused to answer him.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you like that, it went over the top." he sighed, clearly disappointed in himself, "But it's just- It's work, I have to do it. I know I should've told you about it before you heard it from anybody else but... I just don't know what you want me to do."

He slowly made his way to the bottom of my double bed and sat down, making sure I was fine with it. I still hadn't looked up at him. It was probably breaking him more.

"I thought I was very clear about it. I want you to stay here, with me." my voice was barely a whisper.

I heard him sigh loudly. 

"I just told you-"

"Justin, tell me. How would you feel if I went on a vacation with Spencer?" I finally lifted my gaze up at him, my puffy, red eyes visible for him to see.

He opened his mouth to say something but not even a hiss was heard from him.

"You don't even know how much it hurt to hear from Scheana that you'll be going on a vacation. God, Justin, do you even understand how bad it felt?" my voice broke as a sob followed my phrase.

With the back of my hand I wiped the fresh new tears that had made their way down my cheeks. Justin was still quiet. 

"It feels like you're cheating on me. With her." and that was the breaking point.

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