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so I changed last chapters's Chad to Jesse becuz i just remembered abbie's boyfriend was Chad so i cant have two chads in the same story. it confuses people XD
now back to the story...
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I sat on the kitchen counter, my face burried in my hands. It was completely silent. Only the quiet sounds from a distant highway echoed in the large kitchen. No lights were turned on. It was just me and the darkness. And somehow I related to this feeling. This feeling when you have nothing around you when in reality you have the whole world spinning around in your mind.
I had just managed to help Laura to go into her bedroom and make her fall onto her bed safely. She drifted away into a peaceful sleep immediately but it had now been two hours since the last time I saw her. Two hours I had been sitting alone in the kitchen, my phone next to me.
I thought about what Jesse said. Before I met him, I wasn't too worried but now, I felt so anxious. I shouldn't have listened to him. He was just a guy whose girlfriend had just cheated on him. He was being paranoid and made me feel the same way. But at the same time I wanted to prove him wrong. I wanted to show him everything was fine by calling Justin. Yet he didn't even answer.
So now I was in a tricky place, trying to connect with my feelings and not have thousands of thoughts running around in my head.
I grabbed my phone, not caring about the time difference in here and Hawaii, I dialed Justin's number and pressed the cold device against my ear, just like I had done a couple of hours ago. But now I just wished things were going to be different.
Just like before, it beeped and beeped and beeped.
But when I finally heard little cracking noises, indicating that he finally answered, I sat up straight, gasping quietly.
"Hello?" his voice triggered the tears to come out from my eyes.
"Justin." I whispered, "Were you sleeping?"
I tried to sound as normal as possible. I didn't want to stress him out only because I was stressed out.
"No! No. Just- Just working. What's up?" he chuckled quietly.
"Okay. I just wanted to call you, to hear your voice." I sighed, trying to get the best out of this conversation with him.
"Isn't it... four in the morning there?" he sounded puzzled.
"Yeah I couldn't sleep."
Suddenly I started hearing talking in the background where Justin was. The talking got louder and louder but I just couldn't figure out who it was.
"Uhh- I'm so sorry, babe, but I really need to go. I'll send some guitar riffs to listen so you can get some sleep, okay?" his talking was frantic.
I bit my lowerlip hard in disappointment.
"Sure. Bye, Justin." I said in a quiet voice.
"Bye." and then he hung up.
"No..." I whined and burst into desolating tears.
My phone slipped from my hand and luckily landed on the kitchen counter.
Something was going in the wrong direction, I could feel it. I knew it so well it was a mistake to let Justin go to that vacation. But I had no choice. I didn't want him to be whipped but he just didn't get it. He didn't understand what this felt like to me. I've loved him since I was fifteen years old. I've never even thought about another guy. Even those years when I didn't have him, I only focused on school and let the party goers do their thing. I always gave Justin my full on attention but what was I doing wrong then?

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Unconditional (Sequel to Senior Year - jb)
FanfictionThey met each other when she was only 15 and he was 19. They fell in love deeply, but somehow when everyone found out about them, their love went down the hills and jumped on rocks. She was heartbroken and thought he wasn't. Three years later they s...