Unconditional (Sequel to Senior Year - jb)

27. Decision

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Ava's POV

It had been two days since me and Justin finally made amends with each other and talked about having this baby. I still wasn't sure what I was feeling about having a baby at this age and especially when my career was just starting at ELLE's office. I didn't know what my boss and my school were going to think about this but of course, if my money was short, I always had Justin to help me. But that was something I didn't want. I've always told Justin not to get me anything. I enjoy things more if I buy them myself. So all in all, everything was still a big question mark.

I've been living in an isolation these past few days. I haven't been in contact with my family and friends, only Justin. Gladly I got a few free days from work so I had some time to myself. I was never like this. I always needed someone to talk to or someone to see, but now I guess I felt like if I even went to see my family, they would only get concerned about me. I wasn't myself at all. Suddenly I had become very quiet and emotionless. Maybe it came with the pregnancy but maybe it came with everything happening around me. With Justin. So I guess I just didn't want to show this side to anyone but Justin. He knew about me being like this.

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Justin helped me get in the passenger seat of his Audi R8. He was going to take me home to get some fresh clothes and stuff like that since I had been living with him these two days. I was wearing my black leggings and Justin's large yellow hoodie. I had nothing else with me.

To be honest, things between us were better. He was definitely trying to show me how much he loved me by always asking me if I was okay or if I needed something and of course telling me, reminding me he loved me. I could see he was really trying to make us better and I appreciated his effort, but to make things better needed a lot more. I wanted to trust him again like I used to trust him. I didn't want to get disappointed and hurt again.

The car's engine roared to life as Justin pressed the 'start' button. We were in a large garage at the bottom of the building he lived in.

"This garage is fucking... packed." Justin mumbled to himself as he backed away from his car spot.

I shook my head, smirking at his short temper. Slowly he managed to get us out of the garage and to the busy streets of Manhattan. It was almost 3pm so the streets were full of employees and tourists just strutting around and blocking the roads. The sun was behind a large dark group of clouds, looking like it was about to rain in a few minutes.

"You don't have to go to work?" I cleared my throat as I asked Justin, glancing at the side of his face.

His forehead was wrinkled, looking like he was worried about something. But maybe it was just the traffic that was making him annoyed.

"No, I took some free time." his face momentarily gave me a soft look but then changed back to what it was.

"You didn't have to. I could've-"

"Ava, we're not discussing about this. I need to take care of you." he answered immediately, not even giving me time to finish my sentence.

I sighed, sloucling back against the seat.

"I'm not letting you out of my sight, okay?" he added as he took my hand in his, stroking the back of my hand.

"Mhm." I nodded.

"Are you feeling okay?" he asked me as we stopped at a red light behind at least a thousand cabs.

To be honest, the pregnancy symptoms kind of eased down when me and Justin finally stopped fighting. I wasn't so stressed about us anymore.