I froze for a second - not in fear or in anger, just plain confusion.
Why the hell would Matt ask that right now?
"Why?" I responded, not wanting to admit it to Matt, but then again not wanting to lie to him.
"I just need to know".
"Why?" I asked again.
"Because if you're in love with Johnny and I'm in love with Asha, we could fool them and make them jealous or-"
"Stop stop stop stop stop" I said, stepping back from him.
"Even I was in love with Johnny, nothing would happen. He has his issues and so do I".
At this point I sat on my bed, my elbows leaning on my thighs.
"Matt, you're young. You're, what, 21? Asha doesn't seem like a girl that wants to be with a guy like you,".
As soon as I said those words I felt awful. Matt was taken back, surprised that I had said that.
"Oh god Matt, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean it like that" I jumped up and pleaded, trying to put a band aid over the gash I had made.
"No Boss, um, it doesn't matter," he mumbled, hanging his head.
"I'll see you later".
I tried to stop him from leaving but he had already shut the door in my face. I slid down the wall and buried my head into my hands.
I was unsure what to do with myself. I felt so low that I didn't have the energy to fight, yet I didn't want to be sitting on the floor, upset over a boy like a teenager.
I decided to have my strop in my bed, lying down and snuggling into the covers. I closed my eyes, attempting to get some sleep and so I could escape reality for a while.
Just as I felt my eyes growing heavy, a light knock was at my door. I chose to ignore it, hoping whoever it was would go away if I didn't respond.
Despite me not answering, they proceeded to enter my room. I kept my eyes closed, pretending to be sleeping soundly.
I knew by the sound of his breathing and footsteps that it was Johnny.
He sat down on the end of my bed.
"I know you're a heavy sleeper, so I'm gonna talk to you" he said.
"To tell the truth, I don't know what's up with you. It's obviously that I've been gone so long that I've forgotten my best friend,"
I winced when he said that - even though Johnny was gone for years, I didn't forget anything about him.
"I understand you're feeling suffocated in this stupid ship, we are are - but I just want you to know that I'm here".
Johnny moved up the bed, tucking my exposed arm into the covers.
"And I wanna thank you. For helping me through everything. You were really there from the start. I guess what I'm trying to say... FUCK WHY IS THIS SO HARD TO SAY?".
A/n - sorry this took so long to update...I'm really struggling with this story, but I know how I want it to go with the next few chapters! I promise I won't take too long with the next chapter. Also please check out my Male boss/OC story called "all for love". Thank you all for reading and have a wonderful day ❤️
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History - Fem boss/Johnny Gat
FanfictionUSED TO BE CALLED "FROM THE MOMENT I MET YOU" Fem boss/Johnny Gat - based in SR4 The Boss decides to tell Johnny how she feels about him once they save him. The reaction she received is not quite what she hopes at first, but perhaps she has to prov...
