Poetical Demeanor #Wattys2016

The Outcast's Struggle

Feelings not known
I am a taciturn
The untold emotions that remained
Got my soul stained

Feelings and emotions that can't be spoken
In my heart it was hidden
Alexithymia is what I have
An ability that never made me glad

I'm hiding behind the shadows of my weakness
The shadows that drag me to darkness
I was consume by my own despair
With my self and my mask as pair

Everything was covered with the mist of vagueness
It can never be repose with less
The thick mist shrouds my whole being
No one could ever understand this feeling

I've been the lonesome one
Everyone wished I'd be gone
This shan't pass
Not a man could ever surpass

Every moment, every second, every day
Wish I could, wish I may
That my dark world will be lightened by a sun's ray
In the broad daylight, in the grasslands I lay

I wished I had a friend
So that my loneliness will come to its end
But everyone acts like I'm a fiend
Always been dirty, never been cleaned

Someone I can lean into
A wish that never came true
Everyone seem not to know my existence
I am such an unlucky guest

I hid my dreams from everyone
My dreams will soon be noticed when it's done
But before I'll be gone
I want to ba as majestic as the swan..