My Life With Logan Henderson 3 - All Over Again

Chapter 27 I Gotta Go My Own Way (Nessie's P.O.V.)

I storm out of the room, slamming the door right behind me.

Tears fall down my cheeks as I run downstairs.

"What happened, Nessie?" Pam asks me. She and Jeff must have arrived shortly before I went upstairs to talk to Logan.

"Philip, James, you were absolutely right," I say, sniffing.

Pam hugs me.

"He... He thinks I cheated on him," I add, crying. "It's not true!"

"Honey, I know you'd never do that to Logan," Pam says calmly.

"Why did he think so, then?" I ask, shaking.

"I know," James tells us, sighing. "Look, here are the pics from Carlos, he sent me them today."

He shows me the e-mail he got from Carlos and browses the pics till I see the one I didn't even know of, showing me and James. Carlos took a pic of us sleeping in the hospital, my head on James' shoulder... I can't believe!

"I phoned Carlos, he had sent this one by accident, he swore," James tells us.

I wipe away the tears slowly.

"Logan and I are over now!" I exclaim, shaking. "He just broke up with me. How could he think that I'd do such a thing to my best friend, Dinah? It's not fair to be accused of something like that, I've never got hurt this much before..."

"I'm sure Logan didn't mean to hurt you, Nessie," Jeff tells me. "See, this whole accident thing was a massive shock for him, I think he lost his self-confidence then. It's very hard to regain it. Remember how Logan reacted when Dr. Lamberg came here the first time?"

"He was jealous, 'cause he thought Dr. Lamberg would steal me away from him, yeah," I say quietly.

"Bingo!"Jeff exclaims. "Look, my son probably didn't even know what he was saying as he got drunk..."

"I still think it'd be best if I leave him, it'd be best for both Logan and me," I say firmly. "For all of you as well."

"What about you and Logan, Nessie? What about your relationship, your wedding?" Pres asks me.

"What about Logan and me, eh..." I start singing.

"I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days

Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
Is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
He'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here, I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now, I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall every time

Another color turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away"

Pres hugs me, crying very hard. I continue singing, caressing her back.

"I'm leaving today
'Cause I gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here, I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now, I gotta go my way"