you know that feeling you get when you feel like there's an ulterior motive behind their friendliness towards you?
thats literally how i've been feeling all week
so there's this girl in my first hour who immediately became friends with everyone in the group i considered to be moderately safe for me
and now i feel like, now that she's joined it, everyone's judging me for everything and now im hiding my artwork cos im scared they'll hate me if i show someone in that group.
lets rewind:
i feel like i have to hide my art.
from everyone i know.
for my fellow artists who are moderately proud of what they draw, or just fellow artists in general, this is a terrible feeling to have, right? the feeling that if you maybe accidentally show a page you'll suddenly be hated for drawing so well and they will literally look down on you because its your fault they lost all confidence in their own art. this is my biggest fear, that i'll cause someone else to block themselves in art because they looked at my art or i showed it to them.
and right now i feel like thats happening to EVERYONE AROUND ME WHO KNOWS ME AND ITS ABSOLUTLEY FUCKING TERRIFYING
also, this is a really old rant but its still kind of relevant plus i really need to cry so bYe
sorry you can ignore this
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