When It All Ends (COMPLETED)

Chapter 16

#WIAE Chapter 16

Since Avo told me about his feelings for Ella, I had been avoiding him. Hindi ko alam kung bakit... It wasn't as if he told me that he's still in love with her. He loved her. Past tense... but still, I had this haunting feeling inside me. That something wasn't right. I just couldn't point it out, but something was seriously wrong.

And I couldn't think around him. I needed to take a few steps back, because I couldn't function properly when he's crowding me. Pero paano ko iyon magagawa? He's around. Isang linggo na siyang nandito sa AdM; isang linggo na rin akong nagdadasal na sana ay magkaroon siya ng dapat gawin sa labas para naman makahinga ako. Pero wala, e. It seemed like things were going well outside... kung kailan kailangan ko siya na maging busy.

Instead of wallowing on what was already happening, I decided to focus on other things instead. I couldn't go to the shooting range, though. Avo knew that I frequented that place. Hindi rin pwede sa cafeteria o sa kung saan na restaurant dahil masyadong public. Avo had eyes everywhere, and it was making it hard to hide from him.

And it was a weekend. Kung magkukulong ako sa kwarto, sigurado ako na pupuntahan niya rin ako.

"Do you know a place na hindi masyadong alam ng mga tao?" I asked Cathy. It was the first time, in weeks, na nagising ako na nandito siya. She was usually out when I wake up. Mabuti na lang at hindi yata siya masyadong busy ngayon.

Umiling siya.

"Most students have been here for years. Sigurado ako na alam na nila halos lahat ng lugar," she answered.

"Ganon ba? So... walang mapagtataguan talaga dito?"

It seemed like I caught her attention.

"You're hiding?"

I nodded.

"From who?"

"From Avo," I replied. "Kasi... I know this might sound immature, but I asked him about Ella. Naiinis ako kahit sinagot lang naman niya iyong tanong ko... Pero alam mo 'yun? He planted a seed of doubt in my mind. He said he loved her... tapos bigla niyang iniwan? There's no clean reason. Just... poof. One day, he left her for me. Alam mo 'yun? Parang... you'll end up asking questions because things have become sketchy all of a sudden," paliwanag ko sa kanya.

Hindi siya nakasagot. I didn't know how to take it. Dapat bang mas kabahan ako? Kasi sa aming dalawa, mas alam niya iyong history ni Ella at Avo.

"Do I trust him?"

Hindi pa rin siya sumasagot.

"Things happened way too fast, alam ko. But he wore me down. Babae lang din naman ako, and because he kept on saying words to swoon me, I gave in... And now, I'm think that I should have waited."

Akala ko hindi pa rin siya magsasalita pero sa wakas, may lumabas na rin sa bibig niya.

"Avo and Ella are done. He's with you. Why are you doubting things?"

Napatingin ako sa kanya. It was unexpected of her to answer this way... Hindi naman kasi siya ganito dati. She kept on reminding me to be skeptic at all times.

"Di ba ikaw ang nagsabi sa akin na trust no one?" I asked.

She pursed her lips.

"What's wrong with being skeptical? I just want to take a breather and think things... kasi ang bilis talaga, Cathy. Parang all this time, I was living in a bubble. Tapos kahapon lang pumutok 'yung lobo na 'yun," paliwanag ko sa kanya. "So, is it wrong?"

Hindi siya sumagot. She sighed. I smiled.

"Anyway, thank you. I'll just look around," sabi ko at saka tumayo. Palabas na sana ako ng kwarto namin nung bigla siyang magsalita.