Simon's P.O.V.
Tobi and Vik decided to go check in on Josh. I wasn't sure if I was able to. If I was able to look at him now that I know that what I thought was the truth, wasn't. I broke his heart, I broke him. All because I thought I saw something that I really didn't.
He went through something so dramatic and I wasn't there for him. Instead I totally ignored him. I broke his heart, like I thought he did to me. I found a new boyfriend and moved on because of false accusation.
I got in my car and the song came on. The song we danced to at prom. I punched the wheel as the horn went off. I didn't care. I didn't care that I may or may not have woke up sick patients, all I could think about was how I fucked up. I fucked up so hard. He was the love of my life; I still love him. I never stopped loving him.
I started to get a call that interrupted the call on the blue tooth. I opened it up and Dan started to talk.
"Hey, you coming home soon?" He asked as I just groaned.
"Yeah, soon Dan. A lots going on right now." I snapped as he said home.
He isn't my home. He's never been my home. My home is Josh and I've been afraid to come home for no god damn reason.
"What's going on? Are you okay?" He said as I just wanted to yell at him to shut up and leave me alone.
"I'm fine Dan. It just has to do with....with no one okay Dan?" I said as he just groaned.
"You know what, I'll see you when you get back. I love you Si." He said as I just nodded even though he couldn't see me.
"I told you not to call me that, I'll see you soon." I said hanging up totally ignoring him saying I love you.
This is what I did to myself. I put myself in this position. I should've, I should've listened to him. Gave him a chance to tell me the truth. I over exaggerated and never gave him the chance. I ruined our relationship and I don't deserve to be with him. I don't deserve to hold him close anymore. I left him when he needed me most. Just like I'm leaving him again.
Why am I so fucked up?
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"You're home. What happened?" Dan said as I walked inside and just walked past him.
"I really just don't want to talk about it." I said as he gave me a confused look.
"Is it that boy who broke you heart?" He said almost angrily.
"No, he didn't break my heart. Well he did, but that was because I never gave him a chance to tell me the truth. I broke him." I said as he just grabbed my shoulders and forced me to look into his eyes.
"You did not break him. He did that to himself. Don't go back to him, okay? He treats you like crap." He said as I shook out of his grasp.
"You have no entire clue what the fuck You are talking about. You think you do, but you don't. You never know. You never understand me, or care about me. You don't get me and you never will." I said as he just shook his head in frustration.
"I LOVE YOU, SIMON FUCKING MINTER!!!" He said as he pinned me to the wall, "YOU WILL NOT SEE THAT FUCKING BASTARD ANYMORE!!" He yelled as I just nodded to scared to disagree.
I walked into the bathroom and just looked at myself. What have I done to myself?
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Messaging You -minizerk AU- (sequel)
FanfictionThis is a sequel to College Chat. Simon thinks that Josh had cheated on him. Josh knows the truth. Josh has to leave because he flunked out of college. Simon still loves Josh but doesn't want to tell him that.
