"Chop chop, buddy." Jerome's voice ring through my headphones as he slays another person with Betty, his beautiful diamond axe. I laugh as the person dies, and Jerome picks up his loot.
"Here, Mitch. Take this iron chest plate." He drops it to the ground in front of me and I pick it up.
"Thanks, Biggums." We both see the deathmatch counting down, but Jerome yells it first.
"Were goin' to the D!" We race around, checking a few more chests before we're transported to the centre. We fight off the other players before facing each other. Jerome chuckles.
"Here we are again, Biggums."
"That we are. On the count of three?"
"Let's fist it out." We fill our food bars and drop all our weapons then I count down.
"Three....two....one...GO!" We charge at each other, punching and dodging until Jerome's character disappears.
"HAHA I WON DA HUNGER DEENS!" Jerome giggles a little, making my heart glow.
"GG."
"So what's next?"
"Want to play some Cops and Robbers with Sky and a few others?" I shrug.
"Sure, why not." We start up a Skype call with Tyler (LogDotZip) and Ty (Deadlox) and start playing. Jerome ends up being the Warden, while I'm stuck in a cell with Sky. We end up fighting a shitload and he kills me twice. But Jerome comes in and breaks us up right before I was about to kill him. I smack Jerome a little and, because he's nice, he doesn't kill me. We play for a little and I end up getting to the boat first, followed by Sky, then Ty. Tyler can't even make it out of the jail without being killed. We play another few rounds then Sky and both Tylers have to leave. One they leave, Jerome and I log off Minecraft completely. Then it's just us on Skype. He looks at me.
"Mind if I ask you a question?"
"Go ahead."
"Is there any way I could come down there for a bit?" My smile reappears.
"Of course. Just say when."
"Tomorrow good?" I nod and he grins.
"Great. I gotta go but I'll get packed up and be there tomorrow."
"See ya, Biggums."
"Later, Mitch." He hangs up, leaving me in silence. It's then my smile drops and I sigh. I've had strong feelings towards Jerome for months, but it's obvious he doesn't feel the same way. He has his new girlfriend, Marian. (A/N: This is just a random name, okay? XD) He talks about her a lot. He loves her, not me. I stand up and go sit on my bed, curling up and wishing this feeling would go away. You wouldn't think it with how happy I seem, but I have depression. A severe case according to the doctor I went to. No one knows though. Not even Jerome. I know if he found out, he'd leave. Everyone would. Even my own parents don't know. My subscribers think I'm so happy. Id usually tell them these things but they always tell me I make them happy. If I tell them I'm not happy, they might not be happy either. I can't make them sad. They deserve to be happy. But, no matter what happens, I'm still a screwup. I feel tears slip down my cheeks and begin to blur my vision. Jerome is the only reason I'm happy. He's the only reason I smile.
He's the only reason I'm alive.
