Amor Accidental

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I got Joel ready to stay with Honey while Tremaine handled everything else .

"Mommy , I wanna stay with you ." , he pouted .

I bent down to his level as he wrapped his arms around my neck . "I know Papi , I want you to stay too but mommy has been really busy lately and I dont want you just sitting at my computer all damn day ."

"I dont care ! I-I just want you mami ." , he said wanting to cry so bad by all these people were here .

I truely broke my heart . I wish it wasnt this difficult . "Baby , Im sorry . I apologize from the bottom of my heart . I really do want To be with you but I have to stay here and make sure Im able to keep you rockin' Retro's and Polo . Im sorry baby ..."

As soon as my mother and Ciah walked in , he broke down in my arms burying his face in my neck so no one could see .

"Aww , dont want to leave ? ." , my mom asked as she rubbed his back .

I nodded and took a deep sigh to keep my from crying . God knows Joel is my heart and I hate to see him cry . "I love you so much Papi ." , I said bringing his head up . I got up taking a seat and pulling him into my lap . "I want you to call me everytime you get bored or just want to talk . You can even ask Ciah if we can facetime ."

He nodded yes as I wiped his tears and took a deep breath . "Te amo ."

"I love you so much more baby ." , I said as he smiled through his tears and wrapped is arms around my chest hugging me tightly . He pulled away grabbing my face and placing a long kiss on my lips .

"My baby got some good sugars !" , I said trying to get him to laugh .

I suceeded as he laughed hard .

As I walked them to the car , I noticed he didnt talk to me or even answer me back . He got in the car and took a seat as he looked away trying not to cry again .

"I promise JoJo , things will get better ."

He nodded yes as I gave him a hug and kissed his forehead . As they drove off , I rushed back inside going to the restroom and cried my eyes out . I hate that I allow my job to come before my child .

I heard the door open as I sighed pulling my hair back .

"You okay Nika ?" , I heard Amiyaah say .

I broke down even harder as I unlocked it . "I feel like Im failing him as a mother ."

"Babes , if anything your doing all this for him . In your bio , who's name is the only you see ?"

"Joel Ruiz ." , I said there sobs .

"Exactly , Joel Ruiz . He's too young to understand now but once he get older he's gonna look back and thank God he gad a independent , hard working , strong mother."

I got up hugging her tightly as she rubbed my back . "Now get in there and run your magazine ."

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"I-I like dat one mommy !" , he said jumping up and down making weird noises .

"Tell me the color baby ." , I said giggling . I could tell she didnt give hIm any medication what so ever .

"Oh . The wed one !" , he sqeauled .

"JoJo ??! Thats ugly !" , I said laughing as he smiled .

"I like it !"

"Ugh , okay but if I loose my magazine over this ugly hot mess , I will hurt you lil boy ." , I said making him fall on the fall cracking up . He hit the screen looking confused . I could tell he done messed something up of Micaiah's phone .