Any Direction-1D Fan Fiction

Chapter 24: Face Down

Face Down- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

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Nellie's P.O.V

I should not have sent that message.

I know that it was mostly true.

But, I was just pissed. I don't blame them.

I want to leave, but I can't.  I was just hoping that they would stop worrying about me and move on. I know, I know, that will never happen. I've imagined the day that I would be gone. I imagined that I would be dead, but I can work with this.

This will hurt Lian and Niall the most. They'll blame themselves. Niall will blame himself the most. He might even contemplate suicide. I think that Zayna would talk him down. She was always the best with words.

Lian would not blame herself for my disappearance. She'll blame herself for not noticing. And she'll reminisce the last time I was truly happy. They blanket argument in the closet.

I imagine that everyone will feel slightly guilty. That they'll never neglect anyone again. I shaped who they will be and what choices they will make.

The door of my room opened. Alex stepped in.

He laid down beside me- as he often does- and wrapped his arms around me.

"How are you feeling?"

"I don't want to talk about it." I sniffled.

"Then don't. Sing it."

I took a breath and slowly started singing.

"Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy

one look puts the rhythm in my hand.

Still I'll never understand why you hang around

I see what's going down.

Cover up with makeup in the mirror

tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again

You cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?

Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?

Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's got to end

as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect

every action in this world will bear a consequence

If you wade around forever, you will surely drown

I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say you're right again,

say you're right again

Heed my lecture.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?

Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?

Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's got to end

as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

 Face down in the dirt,

she said, "This doesn't hurt",

she said, "I finally had enough."

One day she will tell you that she has had enough

He's coming round again.