First.
Coming before everything happened
I laid eyes on you.
I didn't know what to expect.
Was it love at first Sight?
Friends.
A bond of friendship.
For four years.
I secretly had affection for you.
Did you?
Likewise.
Feeling the same way.
2012.
You told me you felt something with me.
And away we went.
Would it be forever?
Beginning.
Something new, a fresh start.
Something I thought I love was.
The beginning of True Love.
Months.
A unit of time.
The time we've been together.
The unit of time I've been oblivious to hate.
And all I saw was you.
Year.
A total of twelve months.
How long we've been together.
On our anniversary, you told me
You loved me.
Love.
An intense feeling of affection.
It's what Ed and I once had.
Only for a year.
Fight.
A violent struggle.
Something we had when I found out about Nina.
Something I thought, wouldn't be true.
Deception.
Basically A Lie.
A lie Ed told me,
Was that he loved me.
Truth.
A fact.
Something that is real.
Something that you and Nina Had.
That was real.
But what we had,
A Lie.
Broken-hearted.
Overwhelmed by disappointment.
Disappointed that we didn't last.
Disappointed that you left me broken.
Broken.
Fractured or Damaged.
That's how you left my heart.
That's how you left me.
But, Nina is happy, right?
Empty.
Nothing.
I couldn't feel a thing.
Or so I thought.
Numb.
Unable to think, feel, or respond.
I wanted to forget you.
So I numbed everything.
Good, bad, all.
I didn't want to be hurt again.
Feeling.
Emotional State.
I realized I can't numb you forever.
So I decided to feel everything.
Anger.
Strong feeling of annoyance.
Angry that you cheated on me.
Angry that you broke promises.
Angry that you didn't care about me.
Angry.
Fear.
Mixed of Dread and Reference.
Scared I would never love again.
Scared everyone would think I was a player.
Scared to let it kill me.
Fear.
Sadness.
Quality of being Sad.
Sad that you left me.
Sad you didn't call or text.
Sad you didn't say I love you.
Sad you didn't care anymore.
Sadness.
Disgust.
A feeling of revulsion.
Disgusted you cheated.
Disgusted you move on so quickly.
Disgusted that I let you hold me, just like her.
Disgust.
Lonely.
No company.
Lonely from no comforting words.
Lonely from no I love yous.
Lonely from no cuddling.
Lonely.
Free.
No control.
Free from the pain.
Free from falling.
Free from You.
And that's Love &Truth.
- Imagine#30
