OBSESSION [JIKOOK]

HOW IT BEGAN

Jungkook's POV

It's 5:21 p.m. and last time I looked at the clock it was 2:30. I have no idea how I've passed the last three hours.
I have no idea how I'll pass the next three. I am huddled in one corner of my bed, trying to take up as little space as possible even though I am alone.
I look up to the ceiling, since I've been staring at the wall for hours in my pitch black room. Neither making any sounds nor daring to move. I lay in bed, struggling to find a reason to get up. Still looking up to the ceiling.
I should probably get a drink and brush my teeth.
Maybe get dressed and get a bite to eat. I have been awake for more than 3 hours now, even before the sun rose.
Yet, here I still lay in my bed.
I have no motivation, no desire to do anything. Nothing seems interesting or important.
I would go back to sleep if I could, call in sick from life itself. I feel like nothing, not myself. I feel numb. Is this life worth living?
I can't remember since when I felt this way, having no desire and feeling numb. I get sick to my stomach thinking about it and my heads starts to hurt.

"Here is today's weather for the British Isles.The sun is shining in London and the temperature is around 18°C.
But It's rainy and freezing around -2°C in Newcastle. Make sure to take your umbrella wi-.."

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"Buy three and get one for fr-"

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"A horrible accident took plac-"

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"BTS is on a roll with the success of their 2nd full length album, "Wings", and the end to their hot streak is nowhere in sight..."

I almost switched the channel but this caught my eye." BTS ..What's that?", I asked myself, while I sat down on my messy bed.

"BTS (also known as bangtansonyeondan, Bulletproof Boy Scouts or Bangtan Boys) are a K-Pop boy group.BTS consists of 6 members: Jin, Suga, J-hope, Rap Monster, Jimin and V".
"Their debut song was called 'No More Dream', which came from the album.."

"Jimin", I mumbled.
"gentle, affable ,purpose, ambition", I thought. Jimin is a really beautiful name and it's meaning is even better.
"gentle, affable ,purpose, ambition..", I  laughed knowing I had none of these.
How does it feel? Being gentle and being ambitious? How does it feel being happy? He knows ... After all he has fans, which he makes happy. Would he be able to make me happy too? Would I be able to feel something different than numbness ?

" Haha... what foolish thoughts"".
I couldn't lie. I was kinda jealous.
He's making the best out of his life and he's pleasing his fans. And I ... I accomplished nothing .
I laughed in agony.
I turned off the TV and once again layed down on my bed.
"Park Jimin", I said before falling asleep.

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Hello! this is my first fanfic
I apologize for any mistakes
English isn't my first language
I hope you enjoyed this chapter :)